AoT One Shots

Bertoholdt x Self Harm! Reader

This contains triggering stuff and possibly offensive but I had to make it please don't hate me
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You had had it. You were done with life. Grabbing the little razor out of your drawer you sliced your wrist again. Crying and hyperventilating you sat in your dorm. The bullies you knew were Petra and her friends (sorry Petra I need a bully)
You were getting blurry eyed when you heard a knock at your door.
"Who-is it?" You asked through tears
"Bertl, _____are you ok?"
Oh no it was your sort of friend Bertl. No doubt he would want to come in and talk but you weren't in the mood all you wanted was to sleep forever.
"Yeah-, I'm fine don't come in!" You said
"No you aren't I hear you crying. What's wrong?"
Dammit you swore under your breath
You chose not to answer. You waited for Bertl to go away but you could still hear him breathing outside your door.
"____ I'm coming in whether you want me to or not. You're not ok," he shouted. You startled by how head sharp he was usually in the rare occasions you talked he always stuttered.
He barged  through your door to see you in your bed with bloodstained sheets and red eyes.
"_____!" He shouted running over to you. 
Your eyes were watering as he grabbed your wrist and softly traced your cuts making you flinch.
"_____, w-why?" He asked holding back tears.
"I-I'm sorry. It w-was Petra and and," you tried explaining but stopped because you felt faint.
All you saw then was darkness.
You had fallen on the bed toppling backwards. Before you completely blacked out you heard Bertl scream your name.
Bertl was terrified. He quickly grabbed your back and held his ear to her chest hearing a faint heartbeat. He was releaved to know she hadn't really left him. He picks you up bridal style and rushed you to the nurse where they called an ambulance.
Bertl wasn't aloud to ride with them so he decided to confront Petra. He walked to their table and grabbed Petra by the wrist dragging her to a corner.
Petra giggled and followed not noticing the hatred filled look on his face.
"Bertl why did you ask me over here?" She purred
"I want to know what you said to ____ to make her run off!?" He shouted

"Why do you care? I just told she was worthless does it matter? It's the truth," she hissed
"Yes it does matter! She cut herself!"
Bertl was on the verge of slapping Petra .
"So you shouldn't care,"

"Why shouldn't I. I love her!"
Bertl shouted that out in rage. Not realizing what he had said until everyone was staring at him.
Petra's mouth fell open.
Before Bertl could say anything he ran off and out the door to the hospital to find _____.