TATTOOED -h.s.

Chapter 11

Sarah's P.O.V

I snapped from my thoughts as Harry placed his hand on my thigh and said "We're here." He grabbed my hand and said "Are you ready? We don't have to go if you don't want to." He said as he could sense my nervousness. "No I'm fine, it will be fun." I said. We both got out of the car and walked up the pathway to the slightly trashed house. I went to grab Harry's hand but he pretended like he didn't see me and ignored my gesture. As we stepped inside, Niall immediately placed a red solo cup in each of our hands. "Thanks." I smiled before he walked away. "Thanks." Harry mocked. "Shut up!" I said as I lightly smacked his chest. Harry went to grab the cup from my hand but I smacked it away and said "Excuse me? This is mine." "You don't need it." He said while trying to grab it again. "I'm having fun tonight whether you like it or not." I said calmly. "Fine, have it your way." He said as he lifted up his arms in defeat. Courtney spotted us and ran over to me, engulfing me in a tight hug. "Sarah! How's it going?" She asked. "Same old shit." I laughed. Harry looked at us and said "I'll leave you guys alone." before walking away. I became more nervous and awkward feeling when Harry left me. "Come on!" Courtney smiled as she dragged me to what seemed to be the living room. "Wanna play?" She asked as she gestured to the table full of cups. "Beer pong?" I asked. "Yeah. It's fun, come on, it is your birthday and all." She grinned. "Tomorrow is my birthday, but whatever one game won't hurt." "Who wants to be the birthday girl's partner?" Courtney said as she looked around the group of people. "I will." I heard someone say but I couldn't see who it was even though I knew who said it. Niall appeared from behind the crowd and said "Is that okay with you?" He slurred. "Niall, you're already wasted. Are you sure you want to play?" I asked concerned. "Hell yeah!" He cheered. I laughed and quickly glanced around the room making sure that Harry wasn't watching me hang out with Niall, he would lose it. Me and Niall were versing Courtney and...Zayn. When I looked at the other end of the table Zayn was standing at Courtney's side with a black eye and lots of other damage. I gulped realizing that Harry lied to me, he didn't beat up some stranger, he beat up Zayn. He wouldn't make eye contact with me so I just tried to play it off like I didn't notice. "Goody goody is going to be wasted, she can't play beer pong." Zayn joked. "Oh yeah?" I smirked. He bit his lip and said "Yeah." He grinned back, finally making eye contact with me. "You go first." Niall said. I threw the ball and it bounced off the rim of a cup, but landed in a different one. I smirked as Zayn picked up the cup and put it to his lips. "Lucky shot." He mumbled before he gulped down the alcohol. He made a shot and missed. We all laughed as Niall's ball landed into another one of their cups. "Now who's getting drunk?" Niall laughed. I face palmed and said "Look who's talking!" The whole crowd started laughing as Courtney finally got one of the balls into our cup. "Go ahead." Zayn said while pointing to the cup. I picked it up and stuck my tongue out at him before I poured the burning liquid down my throat. I gagged at the taste and dropped the cup to the floor. The game ended and me and Niall won, I feel a buzz but I'm nowhere near drunk. Before Zayn walked away I grabbed his shirt and said "Can we talk?" He hesitated at first but then he grabbed my waist and guided me outside. "What do you want to talk about?" He asked as he lit a cigarette. "Did Harry do this to you?" I asked as I grazed my finger over his slit eyebrow. "I don't want to talk about it." He said as he blew his smoke in the opposite direction. "Tell me." I  somewhat begged. "Yeah he did it, are we done here?" He said angered. "Zayn, I just wanted to know. You don't have to get mad at me..." I frowned. "I'm not mad at you...what do you want to know?" "Why did he do it?" "I said something I shouldn't have." "About what?" I asked curiously. "You..." "Wha...what did you say?" "I can't tell you, I wish I could, but I promised and I don't want another black eye from that psycho." He said. He placed his hand on my chin and lifted up my head to look at him. He looked me straight in the eyes and said "He'll tell you when you time is right..." He let go of me and threw his cigarette to  the ground and stomped it out before walking away. I just stood there frozen in place and more confused than ever. I sighed and walked inside to try and find Harry. "Have you seen Harry?" I asked Liam. "Last time I seen him he was snorting coke with Louis upstairs." "What?" I snapped. "I'm joking, I'm joking!" he laughed. "Don't do that!" I said as I playfully punched his shoulder. "But no I haven't seen him, but it was nice seeing you again." He smiled before being pulled away by some drunk girl. Who's Louis? I thought to myself. I snapped myself from my thoughts by my subconscious saying 'Who cares? Go find Harry!' I found Niall and asked him but he didn't know either. I looked out the window to make sure he didn't leave me but his car was still there. I walked into the living room hoping to find Courtney but instead I found Harry sitting on the couch with Amber in his lap. I felt my heart shatter at the sight of them and I felt the pressure in my eyes grow before the tears just fell uncontrollably as they blurred my vision. I ran out the front door as fast as I could, trying my best not to look back. I knew I was stupid to even think he would want me, we're complete opposites.

Harry's P.O.V

"You fucked up bad!" Zayn snapped at me. "What the fuck are you talking about?" I yelled. "Let her go, she's too good for you..." Zayn said before turning around and walking away. "Wait! What did you do to her?" I screamed. "Me?" He laughed and then continued "This is all you man. You didn't think she would see Amber on top of you? That's low, even for you..." He said before he walked out the front door. I pushed Amber off me and ran  outside to see Sarah sitting on the curb crying her eyes out. "Sar, I swear it's wasn't what it looked like..." I protested. She completely ignored me and looked at Zayn and said "Can you please bring me home?" she cried. "Sar!" I yelled, desperate for her eyes to look at me, but they wouldn't...not even a glance. "Please..." I quietly begged. She glanced at me but quickly looked back at Zayn as he held his hand out to help her up. He grabbed her hand and I felt the urge to just give up but I couldn't. "Don't touch her." I said through my teeth. I stormed at Zayn without even knowing but she placed her hands on my chest and said "Just go Harry, you've done enough." She walked away and walked in the direction of Zayn's car. "I love you..." I quietly said without knowing. I think she paused when she heard me but I wasn't sure. "I love you!" I screamed, wanting her to hear. Everyone's eyes looked at me and grew wide with shock. She stopped dead in her tracks and didn't even turn around. She shook her head and then reached her hand out and opened the door to Zayn's car. "Sarah! I love you! I fucking love you! Do you hear me? I love you!" I yelled as my heart began to swell. She held the handle in her hand and hesitated for a moment before looking me straight in the eyes. I watched the tears that I caused fall from her face as she shook her head again and quietly said "I can't..." before getting into Zayn's car. I honestly think I felt my chest throb as I watched the car drive away.

Sarah's P.O.V

I sat in the passenger seat unable to control my tears as they infinitely kept falling. I was snapped away from my thoughts as Zayn said "He probably means it you know..." "Means what?" "That he loves you..." "If he loved me he wouldn't have just did what he did." I cried. "Trust me... Harry never says I love you...EVER!" "Why not?" "I've know Harry since we were in diapers and he just doesn't, I don't know why, he just never said it...to anyone, or anything. He never even told his own mother that he loved her, not even once since the day he was born." "Then what would make me so special?" I sobbed. "Maybe because he does actually love you." He said. "I doubt it, he treats me like straight up shit." I mumbled. "That's just the way he is, he's a fucking dick, but I don't think he would lie about something that involves love." he frowned. We pulled up to my house and he helped me out of the car and led me to the door. He smiled at me before saying goodbye. As he turned around his smile faded and I noticed. "Zayn..." "Yeah?" "You can come in if you'd like." I nervously said as I picked at my nails. "You sure?" he asked with a slight smile. "Yeah." I mumbled. "I don't really want to be alone right now." I added. I walked inside as he followed close behind me. "Are you sure this is okay with Harry?" he gulped. "I don't know, he doesn't date. So he obviously can't tell me how to live my life." he smirked and said "You're brave one." He handed me a water bottle from the counter thinking that it was mine, but it was actually Harry's from earlier. I sighed and threw in the garbage as he looked at me confused. "I got something better." I grinned as I opened up the cabinet and pulled out a bottle of my parent's vodka. "Why are you so bad tonight?" he smirked while closing the space between us. I pushed my fingers through his hair and mumbled "Who ever said I was good?" I looked into his eyes and he smiled at me and shyly said "I know this isn't a good idea,  but is it bad to say that I honestly don't think that I can resist you?" I pulled him closer to me by his jacket as I pushed my groin into his. He moaned as his head fell into the crook of my neck and he let his hot breath hit my skin. "Don't do this to me." he breathed. Harry immediately popped into my head remembering when he said the same things about my touch. I want Harry out of my mind! I pushed my groin into Zayn's harder,  technically dry humping him. I tugged at the ends of his hair as he lifted up his head to look at me. I grabbed his cheeks and without hesitating I smashed my lips into his.  The taste of smoke and alcohol exploded my senses. I liked it. He held my hips to his hard erection as his tongue slipped into my mouth, making the tastes more intense. I pulled my lips from his and said "Stay with me tonight?"