The Gangleader

Chapter twelve

Maya's POV

I kept walking down the sidewalk, which I was now headed towards the city. The headlights from cars nearly blinded me, and I had a major migraine. It was now dark outside and the darkness had filled the sky. I watched my feet as I walked over the sidewalk heading towards a wide bridge. 

My mind flooded with my past, all the bad memories, the depression, the bruises, the yelling, the medication, and therapy. I couldn't do it anymore, I thought Jackson was different, I thought I saw good in him. But again I had been wrong, the word "sorry" repeated through my head. That hadn't meant anything, it's just a word, a word people overuse, a word that is like a band-aid that covers a bullet wound. It meant nothing.

I headed towards the valley, to my favorite spot, the bridge. I had gone here a lot years ago to think, the bridge overlooked a heavy rushing river below. It was absolutely breathtaking. 

As I reached the bridge I gazed out into the night, looking up at the stars. It relaxed me, made me pretend that everything was alright when it wasn't. Grabbing ahold of the railing I held my self up climbing onto the railing of the bridge. 

My feet dangled, below me was the heavy stream, hundreds of feet up. Gripping tightly onto the railing, tears streamed down my face, the blood was now dried and I probably looked a mess. But it wouldn't matter, I'd be gone soon anyway.

Jackson's POV

We had all piled into the Gang jeep, we later found Lizzie picking her up from the side of the road.

I was so worried about Maya, I still don't understand why I did that. I don't have an accuse and what's done is done. I felt horrible, I liked this girl so much and I ruined it all. The worst part is, is that she has a past, that I don't know about, which worries me deeply.

"I know exactly where she could be," Lizzie announced in a shaky voice.

Lizzie had been crying in Scott's arms for the past 5 minutes, While I've been driving. The rest of the gang had been sitting in silence.

"Where?" I respond, looking through the rearview mirror.

"The bridge." She whispers, "She goes there when she's upset, or not feeling well." She sniffles.

"Which one?" I ask, gripping the wheel.

"The one off the city, near the valley." She says, now rubbing her puffy eyes.

I press my foot harder on the gas if I was going to get Maya. I was going to get her. I couldn't lose her, not now, not ever.

"I feel like we're wasting our time." Bud interrupts rolling his eyes. 

"What the fuck do you mean?! she's my girl." I yell angrily.

"She's one of us." Ty interrupts.

"She's like family.." Emma cries. 

"Was, your girl. But you fucked it up, but now she's not in the way of danger. She'll go back to where she used to live and it's a win-win for everybody." Bud boomed, crossing his arms.

"She's staying whether you like it or not." I glared.

"Whatever," Bud mumbled, rolling his eyes.

Maya's POV

Thoughts filled my mind, everything was coming back. My depression and anxiety spiked up, but worse from being caged in for such a long time. It was like a dusty button that had never been pushed, but now that it has it's coming back full force.

Tears kept falling down and turned into full sobs. I don't want to be here anymore, I should've ended it a long time ago.

"Maya!!" I hear someone call out from behind me, I don't bother to look back. 

I know exactly who it is, I recognized the voice, but I don't want to look at his face, not ever.

"Maya.." I hear a faint girls voice, knowing it belonged to Lizzie.

"You don't want to do this, hey? We love you, I do with all my heart. I don't want to lose my best friend.." She continued in a soft voice.

"No, you don't." I breathe, "None of you do." I say through a scratchy voice.

"Maya, we do.." She whispers, "Just trust me." 

I turn my head towards them, they all had worried expressions but everyone had kept quiet. Lizzie was inching forward to me.

"D-don't come near me, I don't want any of you near me!"I yelled with tears streaming down my face.

"Maya, you're an amazing person.. please don't do this," Lilly said, quietly walking slowly towards me.

"Maya.." Jackson went to say, looking up "I'm so sorry... I am, I can't take back what I did.. but I regret it deeply... Just please don't leave me." He said with his eyes going teary.

"I don't forgive you." I spit, "I don't want you in my life anymore Jackson." I turn away with more tears streaming down my face.

"I don't want any of you in my life anymore..." I trail off, looking down at the water below me.

"Goodbye," I whisper losing my grip from the railing.

"Maya!!" I hear someone plead. I turn my head to see Jackson closer towards me, with worry in his brown eyes, that I had looked at when I first met him. "Please don't leave me. I-I love you." He whispers with a tear going down his face.

Everyone turned to him in shock and disbelief, even I was in shock. But I won't let this get to me, not this time, not again. I quickly turn my head towards the water, I want to end this and I will.

Losing my grip more from the railing, causing more screams and pleading from behind me.

If I jump everything will end, my sorrow, my pain, the past, the lies. Everything, and that's what I wanted. To end everything. I let go of the railing, causing just my legs to be standing on the tiny edge of the bridge.

I look back to see teary eyes or puffy eyes. Them still begging and pleading me not to go, but I am. It will be better for me and everyone.

"Goodbye," I said before turning my head with my last tears streaming down my face.

 I close my eyes taking a deep breath and jumped.

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