The World in Two || G!Sans (Rewriting)

Chapter Thirty Two- Her past

"Have you ever had the feeling that you're drowning? The feeling that no matter how hard you try to swim up you always end up being pulled down. That was how it was about every day. I was trained to fight.

Dad wasn't going to let me end up like my brother, Caleb, spoiled and SOUL dependent on others. I wasn't out playing with others. I wasn't to key on making friends if they would only stab me in the back.

He taught me and Kat all we know to this day. It was going good. Until we were old enough to take punishments. 

If we messed up it would be some kind of punishment. It would all add up to one punishment in the end. Being whipped, cut, sleeping outside. You name it I've been through it. 

Yet no matter what he did I always knew he cared. He always had a soft spot no matter what. This went on for a long time. 

Then the Monsters were let out and I thought it would be alright to go out and make some kind of friend. Despite everything I was taught I went soft for a day and was punished."

I stopped for a moment to take a breath and looked to the long scar on my arm. 

"It wasn't to long after the Monsters were released did the Humans throw a fit. And they started to go killing Monsters. We stood our ground when they came. But it wasn't enough. They got our parents and...they're gone. The three of us split up after that. 

This is the first time. In any Timeline where the tree of us were together and didn't kill anyone. And that's only the past with one of these surface Timelines. There are countless other ones where we are in the Underground and different endings."

I come to a stop once more, thinking of what to say next. 

"And the scars on your SOUL?" G asks, letting go of my arms.

I sigh and a small smile comes on my face as I bring out my SOUL. Scars crisscrossed on it. Some where noticeable and others went unknown. 

The large cut that ran down the middle has scared over now. G reaches out and traces the new scar with his finger.

"They gave you this one didn't they?" G asks, his eye sockets empty as he looks at the large scar on my discolored SOUL.

I just nod and shiver at the feeling of him tracing my scars. He takes notice but continues to trace, going to different scars on my SOUL.

"And the others?" He asks, his one golden eyeris returning in his eye socket.

 "They're from after a Timeline has failed." I say like it's simple.

"What do you mean failed. Gaster showed me the end of one of them, when you cut your SOUL. Why?"

"What I mean by failed is the one where we don't get the "Happy ending". Something always goes wrong. Someone dies and then one things leads to another and you die. Or I die...Pap, Toriel, Undyne...Nothing ever falls where it should......and I wish I didn't remember any of it."

I didn't even notice the soft tears that ran down my face, until G reached up and wiped them away. 

"It's okay, Dove. You're fine. I'm fine. Everyone's gonna be okay." He whispers, pulling me onto his lap and running a hand through my black hair. 

'Truth be told I was right. Endings are the worst, no matter what they are the ending to. I didn't want to remember the bad endings. The fake endings. 

No one wants that. It's like saying you can swim but when put in water you drown. 

You say that you're fine with it, but when it happens or it's brought up you break. You drown in the raging waters of gilt. 

Those are the waters that drown even the strongest of us. That break mountains of mind and bodies of land. 

They are the waters that surround the prison. The prison where our sins live. Where they roam the halls, searching and demanding a way out. That way out is the raging water that surrounds it.

The waters that can make fog to cloud your mind and judgement, and give cover for your sins to escape and wreck your mind.

Those are the water of gilt.'