His Girl

32 ~ Degno

A/N - This chapter does talk about suicide. Please don't read if you find this topic uncomfortable or is a trigger point for you.

Courtney's POV

As soon as Spencer leaves the room, I get up from the couch. I immediately walk over to the drawer in his desk, grabbing the object I walk back to the middle of his room.

Pulling the object up to my head, I rest my finger on the trigger. I'll see everyone soon. I can't do this anymore. Closing my eyes, I was about to pull the trigger when....

"Courtney! Courtney, put the gun down," I hear a worried voice come from the doorway.

I slowly open my eyes to see Spencer standing in the doorway, panic stricken across his face. Tears slowly slide down my face. I slowly, shake my head and close my eyes again.

"Courtney think this through! Just put the gun down. Capo!" (Translation: Boss!)

He's getting his boss up here? Why bother? There's no hope. All hope has gone.

"Courtney listen to me. Why are you doing this? People care about you. Just give me the gun and we can talk about this. Don't do this," his voice almost begging. Why do you care about me?

I hear running footsteps and open my eyes again to see their boss and Ashton standing in the doorway.

"Courtney, think about this. Don't do this," Ashton started.

I just shake my head and clutch the gun harder. There is no hope. I close my eyes and slowly begin closing my fingers around the trigger.

I feel someone behind me and before I could react they jumped on me. The gun goes off but slides across the floor.

"Merda. Merda. Merda," someone mutters. (Translation: Shit. Shit. Shit.)

Someone else grabs my hands and rolls me onto my back. They sat on my thighs, straddling me. I open my eyes to see Luca looking down at me. Luca? I thought he was dead! What is he doing here? How did he get past me?

That's when I notice the open door to my left. Where does that lead to? How come I have never noticed it before? Did Luca come through there? Why can't I just die?

I look past his shoulder. So much for that plan. There is no hope for me. I'm just stuck here. I've lost all hope. What's the point?

"Stai bene?" I hear someone ask. At that moment I realise the bullet had hit someone. But who? (Translation: Are you ok?)

Spencer's POV

After Courtney finishes telling me everything about her siblings, I was in shock. She went through so much! How can someone go through that much?

I just nod, grab my phone off my desk and left her in my bedroom. She has been through so much shit! So, so, so much shit! How can she cope with that?

I walk downstairs and grab a glass of water. I lean onto the bench and start to think. Why does so much shit happen to one person? What did she do to have all this happen to her? Life is so unfair! I finish the glass of water and begin walking back up the stairs. What do I say to someone that distraught? What if I say something wrong?

I open my bedroom door and my heart drops.

"Courtney! Courtney, put the gun down," my voice breaking at the end.