Laura's POV:
Lucy steps forwards and holds Toru's arm.
When I see them together like that it feels like someone just shot me. Right in the heart.
I open my mouth to say something, literally anything, but my body just refuses to cooperate.
I can feel tears building up in my eyes, partly because of seeing him and Lucy together but also because I can't take the anxiety anymore. I can feel a massive panic attack building up.
It's like I can't breath anymore. My lungs just implode inside of me.
I run out of the coffee shop as fast as I can, although I can hear Toru yelling my name, but I can't stop, I need to get out of there.
...
A thousand thoughts are running through my mind... Are they together now? ... Since I wasn't enough for him...
She didn't even seem to be bothered by all of that. Her expression was just ... indifferent... Like she didn't care about me at all... makes sense I guess. Why would anyone genuinely care about me? I'm just a failure.
...
I arrive at the park and sit on the bench again. I try to calm myself down with some breathing exercises.
Inhale for 5 seconds and exhale for 8. My breathing is going so quick and my heart seems to be beating too fast.
I close my eyes to concentrate on slowing down my breathing and after a few minutes I'm okay again. The panic attack is gone.
That's when I hear a familiar voice next to me.
"Can I explain?" It's Toru.
I just look at him, I didn't think he would come after me.
"What is there to explain? It looked pretty clear to me." I manage to say in a somewhat calm tone.
He sits next to me and tries to get my attention.
"Look Laura, it's not what it looked like, Lucy and I are not together or anything." He starts to explain.
I stand up and try to leave but Toru grabs my arm and pulls me back. That's when I look at him.
"You have to believe me, I honestly would never do that to you."
"I'm not so sure about that." I say. "When did you want to tell me about Manchester, hm? You didn't even have the courage to tell me that? Come on, am I not even worth telling? You have no fucking idea what that feels like! I'm always searching for mistakes that I could have made in everything I do and it's driving me insane! And it seems like you just don't care at all!"
He just looks at the ground and I think he finally understood what he did to me.
He lets go of my arm.
I stand up and walk fast.
Back to Mary's apartment.
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Fight The Night - A Toru Yamashita FanFiction
FanfictionLaura, introverted makeup artist, and Toru, guitarist for japanese rock band One Ok Rock, have been dating for about 9 months. Since Toru has to travel a lot for his job and Laura has to stay in Tokyo due to her job, they don't see each other a lot...