What happens when one lover forgets, while the other is desperate for them to remember. True love lasts forever. But what if it doesn't? Tris survives the shooting in Allegiant - only to return and learn that the Tobias she knows and loves - did...
The first time I felt aware of my surroundings was terrifying. I was enclosed in complete darkness and my senses were almost entirely dulled. Was I dead? Was I asleep? What happened to me?! And just like that I slipped back into the complete darkness of my mind, having no concept of time.
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I feel like I am in a dream. I suddenly feel alert, I can't feel my body, let alone control it. And then I hear her – my mom. I hear her voice, but I don't hear my voice. I can only know my thoughts, but somehow she can hear me.
"Am I done yet?" I ask.
"Yes. My dear child, you've done so well." She whispers back to me.
"What about the others?" and in my mind, I then think of him. Tobias. My love.
"They'll care for each other, that is what people do." She reassures me.
And then suddenly I am out of my body, as if I am watching a movie on a screen. The moment I see my face smile, and then the closing of my eyes....I realize that was the exact moment I was giving up on LIFE. On my life with Tobias. Our future. Our dreams. I want to scream at my image, I must fight to live. I have so much left to live for. But then there is nothing but silence and darkness.
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I am a prisoner inside my own body. My broken body. The first time my sense of touch returned, it was as if a flood gate had been opened. I instantly felt the pain it was so sharp and strong that it completely over powered me, instantly spreading across my entire body. I wanted to scream, but I was powerless to do anything. And then I slipped out of consciousness. For how long I had no idea.
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I must be dreaming. I am sitting inside one of the highest carts on the Ferris wheel at the pier, I am looking over my shoulder at the city, but it looks completely different. It is clean, bright, and vibrant even. I shift my gaze below to the ground, I see many tiny people – they look small, but I know they are there. It is then that I notice their clothing – multicolored. I see no indications of colors associated with factions. In that moment the cart begins to move downward, closer to the ground – I am anxious to look more closely at this new world. And then I hear it, the sweetest giggles – instantly filling my heart with love and warmth. I turn and look inside my cart – a young girl, and what appears to be an even younger little boy. They are smiling and laughing, their eyes turned away from me as they point and admire the high views. I am not sure if they know I am here – or if I am really even in the cart with them.
"Momma, this is amazing – may we ride again? Maybe we can convince Daddy to ride with us next time!" the little girl says as she turns to me, and then I see her eyes. Tobias's eyes.
And then my children are gone. I am sitting alone in the cart. The feeling of love and warmth instantly disappears as well. Replacing the voices of children, or the sounds of a city is a slow and constant beeping sound, I hear nonstop beeping. All goes dark.
Beep.
Beep.
Beep.
Beep.
And that is when I hear them. I can actually hear people speaking, I can only assume they are in the room with me. In that moment I realized that I was not dead nor asleep. I am very much alive. And need to get back to Tobias.
I am his, and he is mine.
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"She is young and strong, but it is still a miracle she survived. We need to begin making preparations to pull her out of the coma." I hear a man say.
"Doctor, are you sure it is not too soon. Her body took such a trauma, even with our medical technology and the testing of the healing serum..." a woman says. And that moment I feel soft hands gently touch my wrist, then placing her two fingers to my pulse point. "Her vitals are strong. Getting stronger every day." She sounds happy, and kind.
"We need to accelerate the testing schedule, it is possible she will refuse to continue once she is awake. We can't risk that – we need answers. It is vital to our survival, " the doctor deadpans.
My mind is reeling. What are these people doing to me? Where am I? And more importantly, where is Tobias, Caleb and the rest of my friends. Are they ok?
I feel the familiar tip of a needle being gently pushed into the now tender skin on the side of my neck. Slowly the silence of my mind consumes me.
