unbearable feelings (a kuroko no basket fanfiction)

04

"Alice can you takecare about the 2nd string next practice match?"

Nijimura asked as Alice coughed, the two walked home together since they both wanted to go to the same hospital where Alice usualy check her health every week

"I don't know but I'll try my best if I can help"

Nijimura smiled at her confidence and how hyper she is despise she had an asthma a while ago

"You know... you should stop making others worry about you and go take the surgery"

The male said making Alice looked down as if she lost her spirit

"...I know but, my parents told me to move to america for the surgery since they found a doctor that specialize at removing tumor and the said it will take a year to recover but if I do that... then I can't be with everyone"

"You should've relise that slowly the others are changing right?"

Nijimura asked as Alice only nodded since Aomine's sudden change of power was seen and the way how her childhood friend's shooting was getting more and more accurate that sometimes she felt like she was looking at a different person, Nijimura noticed that she was looking down which he notice everytime she looks down she was thinking about something or she was sad

"Don't worry about it, I know they'll be just fine"

Nijimura asured her but only to make her have a slightly uneasy feeling about it and somehow it send her shivers by thinking about it

"Maybe... and senpai I just decide to take the surgery after wintercup since I want to see the others play just before I leave but please don't tell anyone about it"

...

"Alice don't overwork yourself too much"

"I won't, I'm doing just-"

"Don't lie, you look much paler than usual and lately your asthma is getting worse together with your frequent heart rate dropped drastically"

Alice froze at what Dr.Midorima said to her since it was the truth

"At this rate the chance for you to have a surgery is low much lower than normal that it might be too risky for you to take it, I know you like what you're doing in school but refrain yourself from overworking yourself"

"Then... are you saying that it would be better if I stayed at home? I'm not overworking myself! And I never once like the way my body is getting weaker! I'm scared of sleeping lately because I don't know that I can wake up at the next morning! Its scary!... I don't like it...."

Alice shouted as her tears flow out like a river, she sobbed as the man infront of her relise that she too was scared and she too was a normal 14 years old girl that was scared of death like others would despise she acted as if she doesn't care

"Sorry..."

"Is it wrong to have fun when I don't know when my time wil stop?"

Alice asked before she left the room and went home alone not caring where she went until she bumped Kuroko on her way

"Sorry-"

"Kuro-san..."

Alice sobbed before she hugged him as she cried herself out that made the people around her mutter about Kuroko who made her cry that made the male pulled her to a basketball court not far from the place where the bumped into

"Did something bad happened?"

"No... the doctor said I should take a surgery for my brain tumor but... he said that my health is getting more and more worse lately that he feared... I can't survive from the surgery..."

Kuroko flinched when he heard about her condition was getting worse than she was, he know but he doesn't want to admit the truth despise he know. Kuroko stood up only to hug Alice as if he fears that she will disapear in anymoment and he fear that he might not be able to meet her anymore

"Its alright Sonohara-san, I believe you will be alright even if your condition is getting worse"

Kuroko said as he pat her back gently telling her that she is going to be alright by just his gentle and comforting actions he easily made Alice cry herself out until she fell asleep on his warm hug, he called Aomine who was on the park not far from the basket court to help him carry Alice back to her home that was quite far.

...........

A week passed and Alice never once came to the gym because the coach told her to not to come until her condition was better not knowing that winter has came and finnaly winter cup started but Alice never once showed herself at the gym. Alice looked at the last game where the others played in the final, she could understand that Aomine and the others had changed that send cold shivers to her

"Who... why... they've changed so much... its almost as if I look at another person...."

"Young lady Alice, it seems that master Shintaro is doing well as well as your other friends are"

"Y-yes... this is enough for me, I don't have anymore regrets. Prepare for my flight to America tonight and tell Midorima-san my goodbye"

Alice said as Ryuichi excused himself to prepare for her department tonight by calling the maids at the mansion before send a message to Dr. Midorima

...

"Sonohara/ Alice/ Sonohara-san/ Lisa-chin/ Lisacchi/ Al-chan!"

The rainbow heads called as Alice smiled lightly at the group, Alice can feel her blood rushing to her head at the sight of Kise wearing a casual clothes

"What do you mean by leaving to America?!"

"Nothing much"

Alice said with a smile as Aomine raged but only to be stopped by Murasakibara

"Please takecare Sonohara-san"

Kuroko said as he hugged Alice who also hugged back before she hugged Momoi who was crying just like Kise was

"Don't forget to call me everyday okay?"

"I won't and I'll try to keep in contact"

"Lisacchi! Don't go-ssu!"

A sharp pain filled Alice's heart as she look at kise who was crying like a baby but she was an expert to hide such pain, she hugged Kise as he cried on her shoulder while hugging back.

"Sorry but I have to go"

Alice said before she hug Akashi who smiled at her lightly before planting a kiss on her hand just like a gentleman that made her chuckle at his actions, before she hug Midorima who blushed bright red like a timato but hide it by looking away from her then hug Aomine who slowly hug her back awkwardly and weirdly he pat her head gently that made Alice laugh at his rare side before she hugged Murasakibara who hugged her back just like a child would, Alice was about to went into the airport before she ran back and give Kise a kiss on his cheek before she ran inside leaving the blonde blushing