unbearable feelings (a kuroko no basket fanfiction)

12

"Then... you did tell them about your situation right?"

Midorima glared at Alice who lowered her head while looking away from the angry male infront of her

"S-somehow... since I h-haven't come to school t-the past w-week..."

"Even so, you did tell them right?"

"...y-yes, sorry"

Alice muttered as she hung her head only to earn a light hit on her head, the group was in Alice's villa that was surprisingly near to a hospital and not far from the station since it was much easier to find and much easier for her to not over work herself

"Then... did he knows?"

"No, I'll makesure he won't know and even if I die... I never want that person to know"

Midorima's pov

Its painful when I see you hurt yourself, I know... I already know thaat you've liked Kise eversince that first day I saw him but its painful to see you suffer like this. Alice just why can you like someone this much when he don't even know anything about you? Why can't you look for someone else?

"Even if you died there's a high possibility that Kise will know nanodayo"

"Thats why I trusted you and the others to not tell him, since I know either way he'll cry even when I wish he wont"

How far will you go just for him?

Why are you so unfairly stupid?

I can't promise you that I'll keep everything as a secret, I know you'll help him when he liked someone even if it hurts you... but I can't help to love that side of yours and suffer just like you

I can't be honest like Kise or either to be blunt like Kuroko but if I were to be so, I want to tell you my feelings to you then... will you love me as much? Will you love only me?

"But... Midori-kun, I realy am a stubborn, selfish and unbearablely stupid right?... to let myself help Reina and to make my relationship with Ryou come to an end is realy something... so stupid... I wonder w-why can I d-do such t-things?... its hurts... Midori-kun... please tell me why d-does... it hurts so much... but at t-the sametime... I-I'm satisfied... by just looking... at the two?..."

I don't know... but I know that you love him too much, so much that you'll be happy by just anything that made him happy and I once wish that Kise was me.

"I don't know, I  only think that you like him too much nanodayo"

"...I guess so"

It hurts... even if I already know that she'll say it but it still hurts so much, looking at her tears make my chest throbs and I can't help but to wipe her tears away not caring what Takao will say to me because I too love her too much to the point that I want to punch Kise for not relising her feelings

"Stupid, stop wasting your time on Kise"

Please

"No, I don't think I can stop loving him"

Stop it

"Even if I want to stop, I just can't"

You're hurting yourself too much

"Alice? Hey! What's wrong?!"

Fear, panick, uncertainity and powerless filled me as I yet again see her fainted without warning.

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3rd person's pov

"Doctor, I think its best to keep her in the hospital"

A nurse said after Dr.Midorima and some nurses checked Alice's health but only to debate to keep her in the hospital since her cancer was geeting worse, by a few months ahead winter was coming and Dr.Midorima knew that her condition might get worse since he knew her well for the past years

"I know, but even we were to keep her in the hospital she will eitherway and somehow can escape since I know her eversince she's 4"

The adults was quite displeased and debated with Dr.Midorima until the doctor gave up which he didn't kmew that his son was listening to the whole conversation they had until the older male turn to the corner where his son was

"Shintaro, I've got a good news that Alice is-"

"Good news? Dad... does a 2nd stage cancer is a good news?"

"Where did you..."

"Since when... since when did she have a cancer? Why didn't I know? Why didn't she told me'"

"Because she've already make her mind, just months after her surgery she had a brain cancer and when she knew about it... she decided to not let anyone knows about it including all her friends except for me and all her family"

The older male explained everything as his son froze while an unbearable pain squeezed his chest and somehow he can almost feel that his heart can stop in any moment because of the pain, his tears slowly wet his cheeks as his green orbs showed his mixed emotions

"Shin...chan...?"

Takao called his freind in shock when he saw his tears which was quite a shock since the raven hair never expect to see his partner cry, the taller male wiped his tears when he relised that he was no longer with his father but rather with his friend who also in the same room with Alice who was unconcous on the hospital bed

"What happened? Did your dad say something?"

"Its none of your concern nanodayo, anyways I better call Akashi and the others"

The green hair said as he excuse himself out from the room to make a call with his red haired friend and the others except for Kise who doesn't seem to know anything about the snow hair's condition