Here For You - Kakashi Hatake x OC

Chapter 16: Anger

*Normal POV*

Kakashi had left the ANBU as Lord Third had requested, and returned to his jonin rank. He would be a Sensei, teaching young genin. I wasn't sure what I wanted to do. I wasn't that fond of children to be a teacher, but I wasn't happy in the ANBU anymore. I didn't want to retire, though. Kakashi told me to do what my heart told me to do. The problem was that I couldn't hear my heart. It didn't seem to tell me much on the matter.

I sat at my table and sipped at a cup of tea. Kakashi opened the door and I grinned at him. I loved how he looked in his ninja attire and green jonin vest. He strolled in and I stood up to kiss him. He rested his hands on my waist, "What are you smiling about?" He asked me. "You look very handsome in this new attire of yours. I could get used to it," I told him flirtatiously. Or, at least, I tried. He chuckled and kissed my cheek. "I have to meet my new team today," He groaned, "I hope they won't be incredibly stupid so I can pass them." I patted his head jokingly, "Poor Sensei." "I like how that sounds, you should call me that more often," He purred into my ear. "Kashi! You perv," I playfully hit his arm and he pretended to be in pain. "I have to go now and find out what my next mission is," I kissed his cheek, "You should go too, you wouldn't want to be late." He groaned, "Okay, okay, I'm going. See you later." "See you, Kashi."

After visiting the ANBU compound I trailed home sadly. I wasn't happy about my next mission, and I knew Kakashi wouldn't like the idea, either. I sighed as I shoved my hands into my pockets and walked slowly to my apartment. I chewed my bottom lip as I thought of what I should do. It wasn't as if I could just tell the ANBU no. I could always leave the ANBU, but then would I do? I wasn't exactly fit for being a teacher. And there wasn't much left. I sighed again, lost in my thoughts, and approached my apartment. I sat on the couch and fidgeted nervously as I waited for Kakashi to return. I wondered about the genin he was supposed to pass today. I hoped they were good, Kakashi needed something to keep his mind off of things.

I heard a knock at the door and I knew it was Kakashi. I inhaled deeply, nervous about talking to him about my mission, and opened the door. "Hey, handsome," I greeted him. He looked pissed, though, and said nothing. "Bad day?" He sighed, "The kids were dumb. No teamwork whatsoever. Obsessed with their own selves." I bit my lip. I didn't want him to be angry, but I had to tell him. I had no choice. "Kashi, I know this isn't the best time, but I have to tell you something. About the mission," I began. He looked at me, waiting for me to continue, "The mission... A team of us is supposed to go to the Sand on an infiltration mission. And you know how far away that is... It'll be a month, at least." I said quietly. He had been approaching me and I was now leaned up against the wall, his hands pressed to the wall as if he were in pain. I quaked as I awaited his response. I was a bit scared of him at the moment. The eye that stared at me was cold and his mask was off, so I saw his lips press into a tight line.

"You're not going," He finally said. "Kashi, I can't just not go. It's an ANBU mission." He knew this. "Then leave the ANBU, like you should have done when I left. The ANBU isn't good for us." He was getting angrier by the minute. I gulped. "Kashi, I can't, I have no business training genin, I will not be good at it, and there's nothing much else for me to do." "You've never tried." "Kashi, I can't just leave at the last minute..." I froze as he punched a hole through my wall, right next to my head. "You are NOT going on this mission. It's much too dangerous," He angrily said. I could see that he instantly regretted what he had done. He could see that he had made me scared of him, which was the last thing he wanted. I knew he was only worried about me, which is why he got angry, yet I still couldn't move, my eyes wide. "I'm... I'm sorry," He said quietly, "I didn't mean to do that. I'm just really worried about you, and I can't let you go somewhere I can't reach you. I can't keep you safe if I'm not there, and I promised you I always would. I didn't mean to scare you, please..." He was sincere, but I couldn't breathe. "I love you, I just couldn't live with myself if you left for this mission and I couldn't protect you and... You're all I have, please don't do this to me.." He reached out and I knew he wanted to touch me, but he hesitated. I knew he would never hurt me, but he had just punched a hole in the wall right next to my head. It was enough to shock anybody. I could see the pain and guilt in his eye, I knew he never meant to do that.

"You're gonna have to fix that, you know," I finally said. He pulled me into a hug and stroked my hair, "I will. And I'm sorry. But please don't go." I was silent, thinking over my options. The mission was very dangerous and very long, and the chance of me coming back alive were... Slim. Should I leave the ANBU? What would I do if I did? I sighed. I knew what I had to do.

"I won't go." He looked down at me eagerly, "Really?" I gave him a weak smile, "Yes, Kashi. I'll go speak to Lord Third and leave the ANBU. I don't think I'm fit for a teacher position, though." He hugged me even tighter. "Thank you, Katsi, I'm sorry about what I did. I promise I'll help you out with whatever comes." "It's all okay, but you're kind of strangling me," I laughed and he let go. "I should go talk to Lord Third now," I kissed him, "You can apologize by making dinner tonight," I laughed as I left. "Love you, too," I heard as I closed the door behind me.

"Love you, Kashi."