My Best Friends Boyfriend

Chapter 25

The next 3 days had been absolute torture. They were probably worse than the week after my break up with Jason. I had lost my best friend forever and nothing that I could do or say would make her ever want to forgive me. I felt just felt so terrible for putting her through all the tough crap.

I had allowed Jason to visit me a few times whilst I locked myself away in my room. I think my parents were happy to see him back in my life and to help me through this tough time, even if they had no idea about what had been happening.

Jason was here with me right now. My parents were out at work and we were both laying in my bed. He was holding and comforting me, reassuring me that everything would be okay.

"I'm such a disgusting human being." I sobbed into his chest. I felt Jason stroking my hair and he hushed me.

"You are not. Don't say that about yourself." He whispered as I buried my head further into his chest.

"But Cassie would have never done what I did to her. I was supposed to be here best friend." I continued to cry. Jason didn't really know what to say so we just lay there in silence.

"Do you think I should try call her again?" I sat up and watched as Jason shook his head, "No that's a bad idea Jess. You've called 5 time in the past hour and she's let it go to voicemail all 5 times. Just give it a rest for now please." He whispered and I nodded in agreement.

"I just really need to talk to her and sort things out. I want my best friend back." I looked away.

"You think it's going to be that easy after what's happened between you two?" Jason asked.

"No of course not but we've been best friends since forever. That's got to mean something right?"

Jason nodded his head at me, "of course it means something but you just gotta give her some space right now. We both hurt her really badly and have to leave her alone for a while. I know it's hard for you too but I'm sure everything will get sorted out in a few weeks." He reassured me.

"Weeks?" I gasped.

"Maybe even months." Jason joked but I didn't find it very funny.

"Shut up." I playfully smacked his arm and he started laughing soon after that I was laughing too but after a while I stopped. Why was I laughing at a time like this? Why was I laughing with my boyfriend who happened to be my best friends ex and he was pretty much the whole reason why we were in a fight in the first place.

"What's wrong?" Jason asked when he realised that I was upset again.

"I shouldn't be happy or having fun when I'm in a fight with my best friend who I hurt so much." I answered.

"Jess..." Jason whispered as he moved closer and wrapped his arms around my waist.

"You can't be so sad all the time. I don't want to see you hurt all the time okay? I'm trying to help you out but I don't think anythings working so please tell me what else I can do." He begged me, I could hear the softness in his voice and it was hard for me to fight back the tears that were trying to push their way out.

"There's nothing you can do. I just have to deal with the pain that I have caused for both her and I because I deserve it." I didn't look at him when I spoke.

"Please don't say that." Jason whispered into my hair.

"Cassie was right about me you know." I finally stated.

"What are you talking about?" Jason asked, confused.

"It's just that Cassie said something that really upset me but I know that it's true." I confessed.

Her harsh words kept ringing through my head,"I can't believe he broke up with me for you. You're nothing special." I winced as I remembered the way she spat them out like poison.

"What did she say?" Jason looked at me softly.

"She said that she couldn't believe that you broke up with her for me and that I'm nothing special." I started crying again, looking away from him. I was so embarrassed to be this vulnerable in front of him.

"You are special, Jess. Don't you ever think otherwise. She just said that stuff in the heat of the moment and I'm sure she didn't mean any of it." He reassured me, wiping away the freshly fallen tears from my cheeks.

"Thank you." I gave him a weak smile but I knew it wasn't true. He was just telling me what I wanted to hear from him.

AUTHORS NOTE: I am so sorry that I haven't updated in forever! I have been so busy with school but I know that's no excuse :( I am also sorry that this chapter is short! I didn't know what to put in it but I promise the next chapter will be longer.. Thank you guys for all the support and great feedback :)