Ice Breaker.. Can I Get With You?

Should Have Made Him Pay

Brodies point of view

I walked in my house and I felt anger, hurt, and deception. There on the couch Mike was on top of Payton. That made me furious. Seeing them together agitated me.. even this morning when I saw Payton wearing nothing but Mikes t-shirt I sunk so low as too hook up with Ally. No one was around but I couldn't help but feel guilty. 

I wanted so badly to punch Mike in the face but I stopped myself. He was acting so nice but I just glared at him. He left and Payton was about to go to her room. Before she could leave I grabbed her wrist. She said I was hurting her but I was too mad to loosen my grip or let her go. 

"Payton you don't really like Mike do you?" I hoped she would say no and that it was just a sick joke they decided to play on me. But as usual fate or luck wasn't on my side.

"Yeah acctually I do. Why do you care?" 

Why did I care?! Was she serious I told her I loved her.. I was in love with her! I wanted to yell in her face that I loved her but I remembered that stupid game we played at the party. I made a stupid joke and now Payton didn't believe my words were true. I thoought I couldn't screw things up more than I had but nope I was wrong again and I did exactly what Jesse did. I hurt her. She was looking at me and i had to answer truthfully but instead I lied to her.. again. 

"Because I know Mike and he's a player, don't trust him Payton." She looked at me in total shock but that shock was replaced with anger. I knew she was going to blow up on me. 

"Who are you to talk Brodie? I heard you with Ally, this morning," I was shocked, everyone was sleeping when I called Ally over, I felt guilt wash over my entire body and let go of her arm.Fuck I'm stupid. "Yeah that's what I thought, and anyway it's not your choice who I go out with.. and Mike is the only guy I trust. He's always been there. If anyone can't be trusted and is a player it's you!" 

I was hurt by her words. She thinks she can't trust me and I'm a player.. the feeling I had then sucked. I watched her walk to her room. She started playing music loudly and I felt my heart break. I blew it again. This is all stupid Mike's fault. If he hadn't have been so nice to Payton she could be mine now. But no Mike had to be the good friend and then make the moves on my Payton! 

I should have punched him, no I should have beat him for stealing Payton away from me. I had to get out of the house. I grabbed my keys and called up Jordan. 

*

I snuck into the house, it was around 5 in the morning. I didn't want to wake Jenna because she'd be pissed. I went into the kitchen to grab some food. I bumped into someone, and there in front of me stood Payton. She looked so beautiful in her short shorts and tank top.I smiled at her and she glared.

"Heeeey Paayton. What's up?" 

"Brodie your drunk. Go to sleep." Sheesh what was her problem?

"No Payton I'm fine. I wanted to talk to you." She looked up at me and her look softening. I noticed for the first time she was really short. 

"Brodie seriously... your drunk and don't know what your doing go to bed." 

"No Payton I think you need to hear this, I'm in love with you but you won't accept it because you love Mike. I don't like the thought of you with Mike, your supposed to be with me. " 

"Brodie I'm not having this talk with you ever. Mike is a good guy and treats me right unlike you, he acctually cares." I laughed and she glared at me again. I know I'm drunk, I can hear my words slurring. 

"No Payton he doesn't care, he just wants in your pants. Once that happens he'll drop you like nothing." Tears brimmed her eyes and I felt like a complete ass, but I will not show it. 

"Brodie come on... you need to get to sleep." 

"Payton why don't you love me back?" I couldn't stop the words from coming out my mouth. I wanted so badly to sleep but my mouth wouldn't shut up. 

"Brodie lay down." I took off my shirt and laid down. Payton was looking evrywhere but at me.. and that sucked. 

"Payton will you stay with me tonight?" 

"No Brodie I can't." She looked away from me, she looked so torn.

"Why not? You like me don't you or do you have your lover boy back in your room?" My eyes shut and I was half asleep when I heard Payton whisper the words I never wanted to hear ever again.

"Brodie I have to go.. Mike's waiting."

*

I woke up with a killer headache, and I couldn't remember anything from last night except talking to Payton maybe she would tell me what I was saying. I jumped up and went to her room. I was about to knock when Mike stepped out of the room in just sweat pants. I glared at him. 

"Hey man, what's up?" 

"Wheres Payton? I need to talk to her." 

"Oh she's sleeping. She was crying all night but wouldn't tell me what about." 

I felt guilty suddenly. I walked in the room when Mike went down to the basement/game room. I sat at the edge of the bed. Payton looked so cute sleeping. I was going to shake her awake but she started mumbling stuff I couldn't comprehend. 

"Brodie.. why do you hurt me all the time? Why can't you see I love you...but now I just want to forget you.. I want to forget all the feelings I ever had for you.. I want Mike now.. he makes me forget you." I heard those words loud and clear. Payton loved me but she didn't want to.. hearing those words I felt my cheast tighten. 

I was just walking out of Payton's room when Mike stopped me at the door.

"Hey man do you know how I can get Payton to you know," He wiggled his eyebrows suggestivly. I was infuriated. I was right all along and Payton didn't believe anything I said to her. Mike was going to use her just like he used every other girl. I walked pass him, if I stayed in this house any longer I'd snap and hurt somebody phsically. 

*

It was six o'clock and I had a game to get ready for. I hadn't talked to anyone today except Tyler and Alex. Jordan and Mike had gone out  with Payton. I needed to get on that ice and kill these Devils. I was going to wish this team never stepped foot on Avenger territory. 

The team was doing their pre game warm up when I got to the arena. I joined them and then the coach came in. He gave a long speech about kicking ass but still having fun. Blah blah blah. I just wanted to hurt someone. 

I got out on the ice and looked out at the crowd I saw Alex, Kiana, Jordan, Jenna, Mike, and Payton sitting in their usual spot above our bench. Mike and Payton were holding hands and cuddling. I felt the anger waiting to burst out on the ice. I was jealous over my "former" best friend and how he could make Payton smile  so easily. I couldn't even do that. I lined up at the center and the game began.

*

We had won 6-5. Everyone was tired and we all just wanted to sleep. School would be starting again for us all, and Jordan had to go back to collage. Jordan told everyone that we were going to party just us tonight. I was excited because I had an excuse to get drunk! I got changed quickly and sped home. I was going to have fun tonight and forget all the damn fuckin drama. 

Everyone arrived at the house awhile after me and I was becoming impatient. The girls said they still had to get dressed even though it was just us guys here. None of us argued with them because that would jsut be a headache. 

They were finally ready and I grabbed a can of beer. I sat at the table and we started playing Drunk Driver. I noticed Jenna was pretty good and Kiana was kind of bad. Everyone was having a good time, we were all buzzing. I felt ten times better.

Tonight's gonna be a good night. I thought to myself. 

I was stupid to think that because once I saw Mike kiss Payton and she kissed him back. I felt the same jealous and anger rise up in me. I got up from the table and stromed into my room. Why did Payton have to be stupid and go for Mike! Why couldn't she just let down her gaurd and let me in!? I was frustrated so I laid down and shut my eyes. 

I am gonna stop this. I was going to stop caring. Let Payton get hurt. I tried to warn her but she was to damn stupid to listen. And I still don't know why she still hates me so much, but I was going to find out.