Ice Breaker.. Can I Get With You?

Crossed Paths.

I woke up and had a weird feeling. I felt like today wasn't going to be my day. I walked down the stairs and into the kitchen. Jenna was eating Lucky Charms like she did every morning. I walked over and leaned over the counter, she was really happy and I wanted to know why.

"Heey Jenna, how was your night?"

"I-it was good you know nothing special."

"Oh really, because your glowing and you can't stop smiling." 

She blushed a tomatoe red. I laughed at her as she tried to stop the blush.

"So then Jenna did you and Tyler finally drop the L bomb?" She nodded her head and I felt so happy. Those two took a whole year to say the L word, and when it happens I'm not around. That is just my luck. 

"How did he tell you or did you tell him first I want every detail!" 

"Well I was asleep but when I went to hug Tyler he wasn't there anymore.. so I stayed awake and waited for him to come into my room, he came and slid in bed next to me. I sat up and I asked him how he felt about me and us and he said he loved me, see nothing special." 

My best friend totally got it in with her boyfriend and she wasn't going to tell me. I don't think she realized she had three hickeys on her neck. I smirked at her. She was so clueless sometimes.

"Oh really nothing special? Because heres what I think happened, I think you guys talked Tyler had said cute things and you guys got it in!" 

I smiled with sastisfaction as Jenna was so red I thought her face was going to catch fire. 

"N-no! W-we didn't get it in!" Oh she is such a liar. 

"Really because I think the three love marks prove otherwise." 

I started laughing, the expression on her face was PRICELESS! Tyler hadd walked in at this point and I grinned at him. He gave me a 'What the fuck is wrong with you look.' that only my laugh and walk out of the room. I went back upstairs and hopped in the shower. Brodei had come in and we had argued. I gave up finally getting out and brushing my teeth. Brodie just stared at me.

"Brodie I know I'm good looking and all but do you really have to stare?" 

"Nice legs." That I was not expecting. He walked out after brushing his teeth. I finished my hair and make up and was headed to clean the room I was staying in. As I was walking down the hall I was pulled into a room I had never seen before. 

"Wanna come food shopping with me?" I recognized Brodies low husky voice. That voice sent shivers down my spine. I nodded. I couldn't come up with words... me Payton Brookes had no words. Shocker.

I walked out to Brodies truck and he was out ten minutes later. 

"Your such a pretty boy Brodie, really what guy takes 10 minutes to get ready to go grocery shopping?" 

"Hey I have an image to uphold." 

I rolled my eyes and got in the truck. Brodie jumped in the drivers side and started the truck. I turned the radio on and Crazy Girl by The Eli Young Band was playing. Brodie and I started to sing along. We didn't sound awful but we didn't sound great either. The song ended and then another played. Brodie and me singing all the way to the grocery store, I hadn't realized we had parked. 

Brodie gave me a strange look as I hopped in the cart.

"PUSH MEEEE!" I yelled like a five year old high on sugar. I got weird looks from other customers but I really didn't care. Brodie pushed as I grabbed all the food and junk food I thought we needed. We were down the pop isle when I saw two GORGEOUS guys standing there looking deep in thought. One had brown hair and was a bit shorter than the one with black hair, they were the perfect build. 

"MIKE! JORDAN!" I screamed jumping out of the cart and running to give the two boys a hug. I hadn't seen them since they had left for collage. 

"Payton!" They smiled and pulled me into a big bear hug, I smiled in their embrace. My god I had missed their bone crushing hugs! Brodie had came over and gave them both an awkward bro hug thing all the guys do. I rolled my eyes. 

"What are you two goofs doing back in the city?" 

"We came to see our best friends and see old Brodie here play hockey." 

It took all my will power not to go 'awwe' but I did it. I looked at Brodie who looked uncomfortable. 

"Hey so what are you guys doing here together?" Mike had aske dBrodie but Brodie just stared at the floor. 

"We are getting food for the house." I said realizing Brodie wasn't going to answer them.

"Wait you guys live together? Finally." Jordan said nuddging Brodie. 

"No, Payton is just being the team bitch and taking care of Alexander and Kiana. hey how about you guys come over for dinner or something?" 

My cheast tightened with hurt. I thought just last night Brodie had said he was in love with me? My eyes widened when reality hit me. It hit me hard. I had my Brodie who no one ever saw, and then there was the arrogant ass I hated with all my heart, that's the Brodie I had right now. The ass. I looked down at the ground, Brodie was ashamed that he loved me, he didn't want to. He didn't want anything to do with me unless we were alone. Ugh Payton how could be so stupid and believe him when he said he was in love with you. Of course he didn't and wasn't really in love with you. I felt the tears well in my eyes but I held them in. 

"C-can I have the keys to your truck.. I want to wait outside." I didn't look up. I wouldn't let Jordan and Mike see me like this. I wouldn't let anyone see me like this. Brodie passed me the keys and I said good bye to Jordan and Mike. I ran out of the store and hopped in Brodies truck. I let the tears fall freely and my silent sobs take over. 

Brodie walked out and got in the truck. I ignored him the whole way back to his place. Everytime he tried to talk I turned the radio up and continued to stare out the window. I wasn't into this game he was playing. I sighed in relief as we got to the house. I ran inside leaving him to bring in all the food. I quickly gave Kiana and Alexander the pills they had to take, and I ran upstairs, slammed my door and just let myself cry. 

Is it me? Am I the reason people always leave? Am I the reason all these things keep happening to me? Maybe I am just destined to be alone. I cried silently. I knew one thing I will never be good enough for Brodie, there was nothing to be proud of with me.. I cried myslef to sleep that night.. and I really hoped I didn't wake up in the morning.