Ice Breaker.. Can I Get With You?

Are You True?

I was starting get tired so I laid on the bench. I shut my eyes for a minute or two but I got that feeling someone was staring at me. I opened my eyes to see Jenna looking down at me a frown on her face. 

"Why won't you guys talk?"She asked saddness dripping in her voice.

"Because I don't want to talk to him or even look at him." I said a little too harshly. 

Jenna sighed and exited the room. 

Okay so that wasn't true for the most part... I did want to talk I just didn't know how to start. I was hurt, confused, and angry. He made me so mad but... I may have the tiniest crush on him. I was shocked at my thoughts and quickly changed my train of thought. Just as i was thinking about TV shows and movies I had seen the night before Brodie started to talk.

"Payton.. do you wanna know something?" He asked looking at me intently.

"Yeah sure." I said. At least I didn't start the conversation.

"I'm a "player" because of my ex girlfriend Jamie." He said with a sad look on his face.

I looked at him surprised. "W-what? Your ex girlfriend? What did she do?" I couldn't help but ask I was curious.

"She was the girl I thougth was "the one", but she cheated on me with guys from the football team.." I looked at him and I knew my facial expression had softened, he continued,"I had broke up with her but I didn't feel the same and she had apolgized and I took her back.. just to find her cheating on me with my old friend Lucas.. tha treally hurt me so I promised I would never love anyone again."

I looked at him in oure shock. He had his heart broken by a girl and that turned him into a player. 

"I had been so pissed at Lucas for doing that to me and I beat the shit out of him and dumped Jamie again, only this time I didn't look back. Jamie's cheating was the reason I joined hockey I had so much anger that I figured since it was a contact sport I could take out my frustration and pain on the other teams players... but I ended up burying the hurt and stuff and fell in love with the sport itself." He said a smirk on his face. I was speechless.. why was he telling me this?

"I saw Jamie at the store and all that hurt and anger flooded back to me but when she flirted and asked to see each other again and hugged me I felt happy almost.. like I had missed her a lot and I think maybe she changed, you know? Like maybe she wasn't the same Jamie she was in high school. "He looked at me now and  I couldn't help but feel an emotion I was all to familiar with.. jealousy. I was jealous of this "Jamie". I wanted to slap her for hurting Brodie like that. He didn't deserve that. Sure yeah I hate him but now I feel almost guilty about hating him. I looked at the ground.

"Why are you telling me this?" I whispered.

"Because Payton, you may hate me but I thought I owed it to you to explain why I act the way I do.. I didn't really want to tell you to keep our kiss a secret but I didn't know what else to do. I had to protect you somehow.. I-" I hda heard enough at that point. 

"Brodie if you wanted to protect me, you should have just left me alone. I hadn't always hated you but when you came home the one night with your "puck bunny" I felt instant hate. You always went on about girls you'd been with in front of me..it was frustrating because I would feel jealous of those girls.. because I knew you'd NEVER in a billion years look at me the same way. So if you want to protect me just leave me alone.." I whispered as my eyes welled up with tears.

 I just stood there  vulnerable, while Brodie sat on the bench. I had just probably made everything worse.. he was gonna think I was just some stupid girl with a crush. He was going to hate me even more... and I so badly wanted to hate him.

 I knew deep deep down I liked him but it wasn't the same.. he didn't feel the same way about me.. he likes Jamie and I had now made a complete fool of myself. I felt a tear fall down my cheek and as if on perfect timing Jenna walked in. She saw me and came and pulled me into a hug. She walked me into the hall of the dressing room and asked what had happend. I told her everything and she sighed. 

"Come on we can go for a walk.. and take your mind off everything." Jenna said as she pulled me unto the ice.

After a few minutes we went back to the dressing room and Brodie was sitting there head in his hands. I walked in and Jenna shut and locked the door again. I didn't sit on the other bench this time.. I sat beside Brodie in silence. He looked up after awhile and looked into my eyes.. which were probably red and puffy by now. 

"Payton..." He wispered but I had cut him off by placing my lips on his.

I pulled away after awhile and just looked into his eyes.