Captured

chapter 30

Don't be an ass? I'm so done with this. I take out a hair band from my bag and put my hair in a pony tail. I see Jenny walk into the classroom and walk towards me. "Hey" she says and takes the seat next to me. "Hey" I say keeping my eyes on the ground. "Is everything okay?" she asks with a worried look. "No, no nothing is okay. It's never okay" I say as my voice cracks. "What happened?" she asks leaning towards me. "Just everything in general" I say and roll my eyes. She stays quiet and leans back in her chair.

Someone takes the other seat next to me and I notice it's the blond boy that was hanging out with Zayn at the party. "Ouch! They hit you pretty bad" he says and examines my eye. "More like very bad" I say and chuckle. He chuckles and looks down. "Yeah, true" he says and grins.

"Welcome Everyone! Welcome to Culinary, I will be your teacher! My name is Ms.Rian...any questions?" she says standing in front of the class. The blond boy next to me raises his hand. "Yes?" she says pointing out to him. "Will we be able to eat the food we make?" he asks quietly. "Actually yes!" she says and chuckles. "Anything else?" she asks and looks around the room. "Alright, let's get things started! Right after I take attendance!"

"So Renae..how's it going?" he asks putting his weight on the counter. "Uhm good...Whats your name?" I ask cocking an eyebrow. "Niall! Sorry I didn't introduce myself before" he says and shrugs his shoulders. "It's fine" I say and lean back in my chair.

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Class goes on and before I know it the bell rings. "Alright have a nice day everyone!" Ms.Rian says as everyone exits the classroom. I walk down the hallway to my locker and see Zayn waiting by my locker. I stop my movements and hope that Zayn didn't see me. I need to get my writing notebook. Okay I'm just going to get my notebook I can't be intimidated by Zayn. I walk straight to my locker and move past Zayn.

"Renae! What the hell is going on?!" Zayn asks throwing his hands in the air. "Zayn I really don't know! You probably know me better than I do, why don't you tell me what's happening!" I tell him rolling my eyes. "I don't know what's going on! You seem to just be getting worse!" Zayn says and a couple of people stare. "I seem to be getting worse?! Maybe it's because I'm so fed up with the shit you and Louis pull!" I raise my voice and look around knowing people are hearing. "What shit exactly?!" Zayn asks rolling his eyes. "What shit!? I'm glad you asked! To begin with, you both need to stop acting like nothing ever happened! What was done was done! It really messed up my life! Do you know what it feels like to be followed, stalked, AND ABDUCTED BY SOMEONE?! Then you find out who it is and they tell you they have feelings for you? It doesn't make sense! Saying it aloud sounds even more stupid than thinking about it! Zayn I can't deal with this anymore! I don't know what to think! I honestly don't! So much goes on I don't know where to start when the conversation comes up! I understand people change over time but I can't be nice about it! You have physically and mentally destroyed me. More mentally and it's not just you Zayn, Louis as well! I wish this never happened at all as much as you wish this never happened but it was done and there's no turning back! I just need air Zayn. I need a place where I can forget all my thoughts...Im sorry I can't" I yell and notice everyone in the hallway is staring. I grab my notebook and grab my notebook and close my locker making my way upstairs to writing. I feel all eyes on me and people whispering things to each other. "But I like Zayn" a girl from my math class says and makes a pouty face. Her and all her friends laugh but I ignore it. I just really want lunch to come since after lunch I have my free period and then I go home.

I walk into writing and I sit down in back. I felt the knot in my throat but ignored it. I didn't want to cry here. Not ever.

More people come into the class and sit down. Some look at me knowing what happened and others with a confused face. I pull out my phone and see I've gotten a text from Liam.

'Hey :) I'm in English right now but anyways I forgot to text you earlier that I hope you have a good day and I know you will pull off that smokey eye x)'

I smile at his text and roll my eyes in amusement. Liam can always make my day.

'Hey Liam :) thanks for the text. It made my day a little better'

I put my phone away and listen to Ms.Caty as she talks about what she expects from us throughout the school year. Blah blah blah. I go back to thinking about Zayn and what I told him before I came to class. Why do I even bother thinking about him? All it does is frustrate me.

Before I know it the bell rings and I'm the first to walk out the door. I walk down the hallway and down the stairs not making eye contact with anybody. "Renae!" I hear Vanessa from behind me but I ignore her not because I was mad at her I just didn't want to talk to anybody. I walk towards my locker and put my things in there and close it as I walk off and out the front entrance of the school. I show the security guard my i.d at the side gate and walk towards my car in the parking lot. I could already feel the scream inside of me wanting to burst. I unlock the doors to my car and get in as I put the keys in the ignition. I look behind me before I pull out the space. I drive out of the parking lot and stop at the stop sign. I turn onto another street and continue driving all the way down the street making my way to D-hill.

When I get there I park my car to the side and get out. I take in a deep breath and let it out. I can feel the tears in my eyes forming. I count to three in my head and on three I scream as loud as I can. The tears rushing down my face, I make another scream. I take deep breathes and open the car door as I get in.

I pull out of the vacant area and drive down the road. Tears still running down my face and to make matters worse...blurry vision.

I wipe my eyes and continue driving down the street. I had no idea where I was heading but I didn't want to go back to school. I drive into the parks parking lot and park the car. I had no appetite surprisingly and just sit there and stare into empty space.

I jump at the sound of my phone vibrating and check to see who it is. Zayn. I open the message and scroll at the never ending text message. I begin to read knowing that I'll regret it when I'm done.

'Look, Renae. I don't know any other way to tell you. Whenever I try to explain myself you end up getting frustrated and just walking away. You're probably wondering why I'm sending you this but like I've pointed it out it's the only way I can talk to you! I want to talk things out. Things happen in the past and when were doing these things we don't realize how it'll effect our future. I messed up. Big time! I will not deny that but you need to not remind me of everything I did! sometimes I to forget it all because I hate the fact thinking that I actually watched a girl and so forth but I can't forget because like you know what happened is what happened. Me and Louis are in some problems right now so I get why he's telling you all of those other things! He actually has a point though! I just want to tell you that I do want to talk things out. I know I like you and you know that too but just because I want to talk to you doesn't mean I'm going to get up all on you! Renae, I respect you a lot! Playing you will never be one of my options. So please Renae just...just text me or call me or meet me somewhere. I'm not the only one who needs to get things off their chest. It would be great to here from you again'

I put my phone down on my lap and take a deep breathe. I dial Zayn's number down on my phone and press call. As I wait for him to pick up I have a million things that I am thinking. What am I even doing?! I ask myself out loud.