Captured

chapter 31

(Quick note! I know it's kind of late for this but if you were wondering who I picture Renae as, I picture her as Shailene Woodley but with long hair -since she cut it-)

"Hello?" Zayn answers on the third ring. "Zayn..I need to talk to you" I say licking my bottom lip and holding it for a second. "Alright what's up?" he says with a curious tone. "In person" I say letting out a deep breath. "Oh..okay..when?" he says into the receiver. "Now?" I say as if it were a question. "Where at?" he asks. "Here at Riverside Park..." I say and look around seeing if anybody was around. The park was empty. "Alright I'm on my way!" Zayn says and hangs up.

I open the car door and step out. I need some fresh air. The pain in my eye stings a bit as the slight wind hits it. I notice a couple sitting on the bench in front of the lake. I thought it was empty. Well whatever. I then walk over to the swings and take a seat. I keep looking over to the couple. They looked civil. Not a perfect couple but they looked happy with what they had. The boy looks back and I see that it's Harry and Jerusha. I turn away quickly and look the other way. "Hey Renae" Harry calls out from the bench. I look back and smile. "Hey guys!" I say. "What are you doing here?" Jerusha asks turning her head halfway. "I was going to meet Zayn here actually" I say and chuckle. "That's nice" Harry says and smiles.

Zayn's car drives into the parking lot and parks right next to me. "I'll talk to you guys later" I tell Harry and Jerusha as I get up and start to walk to Zayn's car. "Okay!" I hear Harry say behind me.

"Hey" Zayn says and gives a small grin. "Hi" I say and open the door to my car. I unlock the passenger side and Zayn gets in as well. Where do I even start off with Zayn?! "I'm sor-" Zayn begins to say. "Don't" I say and roll my eyes. "Well then tell me what I've been doing wrong? That's why I came here" he says and looks out the passenger window. "I'm glad you asked Zayn let me tell you" I start to say and form a fake smile. "Do you even know how I feel?..Of course you don't! Nobody does! Because no one has ever been in my position! No one has ever been abducted so many times and later finds out that one of those people like her and say that they never meant anything they did! Maybe they didn't mean anything! Maybe they were right when they said that someone was telling them what and what not to do but that doesn't matter. If they liked that person they would have helped her and stopped it sooner...But maybe they didn't like her at the time! Because someone did help her but they didn't like her at the time either because they had barely met her. But they didn't lose contact. In fact they continued talking and got closer and closer and when she has to chose between someone who has abducted her or helped her who do you think she'll choose? Honestly I don't know! I really don't! Because when you're in that position, you're suck in a love triangle that you can figure out! No matter what either one of them did to you. They're pulling you into their trap and you don't know what kind of trap it's going to be! It could be a lovely trap it could be a played trap and you never know what's going to happen. You're attracted to both and you don't want that because when you're talking to two boys people start talking and that's when you get names you never knew you would have been called. You can't trust anyone anymore. So many people bullshitting you, you don't know what to believe. You don't know when people have changed because of what they've done to you. But they tell you that they've changed. And they're begging for you to forgive them. You just don't know what to do because you'll never forget what they've done to you. No matter how much you want to, you don't because things happened in the past and even though they were in the past they're counted as unwanted memories and every time you look at that person that hurt you the most but you're attracted to you just want to die. Die because you're done with everything. You're sick and tired of people talking shit not just about you but everyone in general...you're pissed off because you don't know who punched you in the eye and you probably never will know. You'll never know what caused everything to happen. "The past is the past don't be an ass". When you're in a position like this...you don't consider yourself as an ass. You've learned your lesson and you're still learning it so you don't know which way to go. So you just ignore everyone else and set your mind on what you want to do. They say to be yourself and do what you want to do right? Then why is it we get judged? Because I'm not the only ass. The world is an ass. I'm an ass who doesn't know what to do or what she feels." I say and look over to Zayn. His face speechless and surprised. "Now if you want to explain yourself go ahead just don't get mad if I can't turn to you right now, right at this second" I say still looking at Zayn.

•Zayn's POV•

I didn't know she felt like this. I don't know why I didn't see that she was feeling like this. I didn't deserve her. "Renae...I'm just going to speak whatever comes to my mind because you're leaving me speechless here. I'm sorry. I've said that so many times but to me that's the only way I've learned how to apologize. I never knew you felt this way and I didn't have an intention for you to feel this way. Renae any guy would be lucky to have you. I'm just not one of them" I say and open the passenger door as I get out and close it. I unlock my car and open the door. Just as I was about to get in Renae steps out of her car and looks at me. I stare back. "Zayn..." she says and take a deep breath. "Don't feel like that...it's not all your fault...I just wish things wouldn't have happened the way they did" she says and looks back at the lake. "Well they did sadly..." I say and get in closing the door. I turn the ignition and the car starts. I see Renae by the window so I roll down the windows. "I think I can forgive you" she says. I cock an eyebrow with confusion. "What do you mean?" I say looking at her.

My eyes turn away from Renae as I look at the person dressed in black with a black ski mask and a gun in his hand aiming at Renae. My eyes widen and Renae knows something is wrong. I slowley grab ahold of Renaes hand and hold it. Surprisingly she takes a hold of my hand as well. "Don't. Move." I mouth to Renae. She nods her head and I see her gulp. Her hand moves up to my forearm as she holds it tightly. I pull out my phone cautiously and dial 911 without looking. "911, what's your emergency?" I can hear the lady talking from the receiver. My heart begins to pace faster and faster as I open the door and get out. "STEP AWAY FROM HER!" I yell pulling Renae behind me. "Taking a bullet for your little friend?! Remember, she took a punch for another guy....lets see how much she cares about you" he says. I knew it was someone that was apart of the group but I didn't know who! Gavin was the headmaster of everything. Then Louis, his nephew, right under him. They were the only ones who knew everyone that was apart of the group. I remember when they both first explained it to me.

*FLASHBACK*

"Why are we doing this?! I don't see the point in making a girl suffer?!" I say and look at Gavin seriously. Why was he doing this?! What made him come up with this? Why this girl named Renae? I kept asking myself so many questions that I knew wouldn't get answered. "BECAUSE HER MOM BROKE A PROMISE. THAT PROMISE WAS FOREVER. SO MY PROMISE IS, KARMA IS A BITCH" he yells at me in the face.