Why Me?

Chapter 21

We have been in the car for about 55 minutes and I can tell you than my ass hurts from sitting down so much. I just wanna go to bed to be honest. Chris and I have been silent for a while, I can tell his in a deep thought because of his concentrated face.
"What's up babe"
"Huh nothing why?" He asks me
"Your face shows your thinking about something, what's wrong?" I ask him and he shakes his head
"No no nothing wrong babe" he squeezing my thigh
"Okay I'll believe you for now" I hold his hand and he smiles at me
Around 10 minutes later we arrive at Chris's house and are laying in his bed talking about our relationship.
"How long do you reckon we will last" I ask him
"Forever hopefully, well I already have you that promise ring soo.." he trails off
"Yeah we will be forever" I tell him and he kisses my forehead
"Hey you know how we are 17?" He asks me
"Yeah?" I question him
"When we are 18 considering we practically live together do you want to move in with me?" He asks me
"Of course I want to move in with you soon" I tell him and give him a kiss, he rolls over so his on top of me and I feel him slide him tongue along my bottom lip, I part my mouth so he can slide his tongue in my mouth, we explore each others mouth until detaches his lips from mine and attaches them to my neck. After a few minutes he kisses under my ear and whispers to me
"I wanna" he tells me
"Not tonight Chris in really tired" I tell him pushing him off me
"Are you serious?" He snaps at me
"Chris are you actually pissed at me?" I ask him
"Yes summer I fucking am, you turn me on and then I don't get anything about it because you are so selfish and don't care about me and just think about yourself!" he starts raising his voice
"Are you being serious right now! I can believe you just said that. I'm sorry that I don't want to have sex every night, and Chris I would of right now but sorry I got my fucking period!" I yell at him and I walk out of his room. I walk down stairs and sit on the lounge, how can we go like this? Talking about our future and them yelling at me because i didn't want to have sex with him what the hell?!
I do not want to be here anymore but there's no way I can get home, it's too late to walk home and ever since my little incident at the park a few weeks ago I don't want it happening again. I could call Jakob but his probable with Mackenzie right now doing who knows what and I don't want to ruin things for him. I get out my phone and call Ethan
( Summer Ethan )
Hello
Hey etho it's me
Oh hey summer what's up
Uh what are you doing right now
Nothing why? Is everything okay?
Um not really could you pick me up from chris'?
Yeah alright I'll leave now, is everything okay though?
Yeah I'm fine just please hurry I don't want to be here any longer
Alright I'm coming now I'll see you in a few

That was the last thing he said before hanging up the phone, I walk outside and sit in his porch swing and wait for Ethan.
I actually cannot believe Chris right now, as soon as we where in a good place he ruins it. What ever happened to 'I will never pressure or get angry at her if she never wants to do something' apparently that was a lie too. Sometimes I don't even know why I'm with him, I should be with someone who cares about my decisions and doesn't question me, I could be up there cuddling Chris right now if he just accepted my decision.
Ethan's car pulls up in the drive way and I get up and start walking over to it, every step I take the more upset I get. My eyes start to form tears but I try my best to push them away, I open the passenger side door and get in
"Hey etho, thanks a lot" I tell him
"Anytime, what happened?" He asks while backing out of Chris' driveway
"Um we made out and he said that he wanted to do you know what and I said I don't want to then he started yelling at me saying how I can't just turn him on and not do anything about it and that I don't care about him and stuff, I mean I would of done it with him before he started yelling at me but I couldn't" I tell him and he had a shocked look in his face
"He seriously yelled at you because you didn't want to have sex with him!" He says
"Yep" I say looking it the window
"That's fucked up" he tells me and I agree
"I know, I should be someone who loves for me for me and will respect my decision, not only for this but for everything, someone like jako-" I cut myself off
"I mean just someone who cares and respects me" i try to cover up that I was about to say jakobs name
"You where about to say Jakob!" He starts hitting my arm with his free hand
"Do you like him still?" He stops hitting me and asks me
"No of course I don't but I wish Chris was more like Jakob sometimes" I tell him honestly
"Am I not good enough?" He holds his chest
"I wish he was like you etho" I look at him and we laugh
"Aw your a cutie" he messes up my hair
"Aww Ethan why you mess up my hair for" I fix up my hair
"Shush you love me" he tells me
"Yeah yeah" I say
"Jakob asked Mackenzie out today" I tell him
"Yeah he told me, there pretty cute" etho says and I nod
"Yeah I know, we went to wet and wild today" I tell him
"Where was my invite!?" He yells
"Sorry blame Chris" I tell him
"I don't wanna talk to him right now" he tells me and I nod
"Same here etho same here" I say and he puts his hand on my shoulder
"Sorry summer, he doesn't deserve you" he says and we pull up in his drive way
"You could of took me home I don't wanna trouble you" I tell him
"No it's okay, I don't want you alone right now this is the best thing" he tells me and we get it of the car
"Alright thank you etho" we walk up to his front door and he unlocks it, I follow him up to his room and sit on his bed
"Hey summer can I tell you something" etho asks me
"Yeah of course" I tell him
"I think you should of chose Jakob, even though his with Mackenzie now but still, you guys where cute together and he treated you great not like Chris" he tells me.
Maybe I should have? Jakob treated me amazing and was so caring, Chris treats me great but there's something about Jakob that I can't resist. I know I can't go running back to Jakob now but I don't know if I want to be with Chris anymore, I'm starting to think he only wants me for the sex and not for me.
If it was Jakob I was with before and I said no to having sex he would of been 100% okay with it but Chris yelled at me because I didn't want to.
I don't know what is wrong with him lately but one day his good and the next his not a good boyfriend.
"Yeah maybe I should have" I honestly reply to him
"But too late now" I continue speaking
"It isn't" he tells me and I give him a questioning look
"What do you mean?" I ask him confused
"If you talk to him about it maybe he will reconsider his choices, he loved you one day and 2-3 days later his with another girl, he will still have feelings for you but he will be trying to push them away" he tells me and I think about it
I know the feelings thing was probably true but I couldn't ruin there relationship, even if he chooses me I won't do that to Mackenzie, she really likes him and they are a cute couple.
"No there happy together, and if he doesn't still have feelings for me it will ruin our friendship" I tell him
"Summer nothing can ruin you guys' friendship, you two had sex and you are still best friends" he says, "that's true but still, I'm not doing it" I tell him
"Yeah okay I understand" he tells me
"If Chris only said those 4 works a few hours ago we wouldn't be in this predicament right now" I say to etho
"Pretty much" he says while laying down facing me
"Sorry to drag you into this" I apologise to him
"What are best friends for" he leans up and hugs me
"Everything will be okay" he continues
"Thank you" I thank him
"What do you wanna do?" He asks me
"I don't mind up to you" i reply
"Wanna go for a walk to maccas down the street?" He asks me
"Yea sure but it's 10:00 and i have no money" I tell him
"Doesn't matter what time it is and I'll pay for you" he tells me
"Uh okay sure" i tell him, I still don't like walking around at night, I'm scared something's going to happen even though I know that it most likely won't, we walk down stairs and he opens the front door, I walk through and wait for Ethan to lock it.
We start walking down the street to maccas, as soon as I feel safe again a car screeches behind me causing me to grab Ethan's arm and jump.
"It's just a car are You alright?" Ethan asks me
"Yeah ever since the other week I don't like being out at night" i tell him
"Oh sorry we can go home" he says turning around
"no it's okay let's continue walking, I need to get over it" I tell him and he nods
"Yeah okay" he says.
We continue walking to maccas taking about how we should go see ed Sheeran and 5sos when they come. We arrive at maccas and we go order
"Can I please have a medium quarter pounder meal please" I say and I hand her the money
Ethan orders the same and we go sit down and wait for our number to be called, I look up to see Chris walking through the door while on his phone. I grab Ethan's arm and move to another seat which is less likely to be seen by Chris
"Why did we move?" He asks me
"Chris is here, he just walked in" I tell him
"We shouldn't of moved, he should know you still have fun and are happy without him" he tells me and I nod
"Yeah that's true" I tell him
"Order 275" we hear a worker yell out and we get up and walk over to the counter
"Thank You" I quickly say and try to get out of chris' view, I walk fast to the table but with my luck Chris sees me
"Summer" I hear him say and I look at Ethan and continue walking to Ethan's and I's table putting my food down
"Summer don't avoid me" Chris says standing right behind me
"What do you want" I ask him
"I'm going to give you two some space" Ethan says and walks away
"I'm sorry for before" he tells me
"No Chris you aren't, all you want is sex from me" I turn around and start walking away
"No I don't summer, please believe me" he tells me
"Order 826" someone yells and Chris looks
"I'll be right back" Chris tells me and puts his phone and keys on the table.
Chris walks away and I hear chris' phone beep, I pick it up and get shocked at what I see