March One Shots (girlxgirl)

"Miserable."

[NOTE: did you read the description to the side?? Each one-shot COMPLETELY turns the plot on its head! Things that happened in the first one-shot, they never happened here! Each time I restart the story! However, the characters do remain consistently the same. That is all. Thank you for continuing to read my story!]

"Miserable."

SailorxDawn

MarchxSailor

I. Am. Miserable.

I'm dating this guy named Abbott. He has light brown hair and blue eyes that are gold around the pupil. His lips go really wide when he smiles and his eyes narrow, but not in negative way.

I'm attracted to him. No, really. But I like this girl named Sailor more. I got obsessed with her in the middle of dating Abbott, so needless to say...it's awkward for me.

Somehow I always go for the kid with brown hair and green eyes. My first crush was on a guy with brown hair and green eyes, Sailor has brown hair and green eyes, and I've totally fallen for her.

My problem is I can't go and chase her. I have to stay behind and date Abbott, who I no longer like as much as I used to. I can't break up with him because it'd break his heart, and I like him enough that I'd never do that to him. I mean, he's devoutly Catholic, so if I told him, "hey, I turned gay in the middle of dating you and I want to break up with you to run off with this girl instead," I'd be world's biggest asshole.

I just love Sailor more somehow. I want her for no explainable reason. I mean, she is the most gorgeous girl to walk the Earth, her voice is itself a sweet melody, and she's deeper than an ocean trench, all of which is highly attractive to me. The whole is worth more than the sum of its parts though, so maybe that's how I can feel so passionate towards her. I want her. I want her to the point where I cry myself to sleep at nights, unable to have Sailor and stuck with Abbott, who couldn't even be called second-best to her. She's all I could ever want.

Abbott has no idea I feel this way. He's blind completely to the struggle inside my mind. I've cheated on him so many, many times in my dreams with Sailor, even with those random people my dream makes up, but they're always beautiful females. I don't want Abbott anymore, but I can't give him up. How could I break him like that? What would I tell his family, who I'm close to, whom I consider my own family? His mom? His dad? His brother, who Abbott often times childishly fights with, but I find amusing? He will know from the moment I break up with him that I went to chase a girl right after him. It will break his heart.

I feel like I'm in a rush against time. I think there's someone else out there who likes Sailor, her name is Dawn. Dawn and Sailor have history, that I know a little on, but no one is supposed to have any knowledge about. I argue that it's Dawn's fault for not whispering more quietly. Dawn is dating a guy named Macall, so she can't be with Sailor right now either. I'm safe for now. I'm safe, Sailor will stay single for me until I finally have a good opportunity break things off with Abbott.

It would break me if Sailor ended up with anyone else.

[...]

I heard Dawn broke up with Macall yesterday. They're still best friends too. I envy her. If only I could be free to chase Sailor. If only I could have the girl of yes, my dreams, to love and cherish...

[...]

No! NO!

Remi called me from Sailor and Skye's home phone today. Remi is Sailor's best friend since they met in elementary school, but Remi moves a lot.

Remi has hair that's a medium shade of brown and a medium length for girls. Her face is wide and eyes are big, so she seems very childlike at first glance. Her eyes change from blue to green to gray, but I always find myself thinking of her with green eyes. She's shorter than me but taller than Sailor, while Sailor is taller than Dawn. Dawn and Skye are about the same height, I'm guessing.

Remi moved to attend my school, where I met her and became best friends, before she moved again back to Sailor's town. Her family had to move once more, but Remi elected to stay with Sailor's family and finish the year there. Skye is Sailor's younger sister and gets along great with Remi, but has never been on good terms with Sailor. I saw a black-and-white photo of Skye in the newspaper once, of her cheering on a sports team, her face is so much like Sailor's, but Skye's is smoother and was snooty in the picture. I've never met Skye in person.

What Remi called to tell me about is that Sailor and Dawn went on a date, holding hands together. Somehow out of nowhere, Dawn came over and confessed to liking Sailor, while Sailor admitted to having feelings back. They went somewhere downtown. Remi says she's really happy for them and hoped it would give me some courage to come out.

Um, not really, my heart is starting to break here!

I give Remi an insincere goodbye and hang up. I'm racing outside to my car when I bump into Abbott walking up the driveway, giving me a surprise visit.

"Well, hello there." He cocks a smile at me like he always does, that wide one.

I speak rushedly the words I don't want to say. "Ihavetobreakupwithyou."

"What?" His voices cracks in his confusion.

I yelled, "I have to break up with you!"

I run to my car and squeal the accelerator starting off for downtown, leaving a broken Abbott in my dust. That situation is now about as screwed up as I was afraid it would become, but I have a bigger emergency now.

I park in a parallel parking spot perfectly, without even sweating it, because I'm so nervous. I'm about to lose the love of my life, I just know it. And I can't do that. I start walking in a direction, any direction, until I miraculously find Sailor and Dawn eating dinner together in a window booth. It's almost night, I cant even see the sun over the buildings, but I bet out there that there's still a sunset. I'm on the other side of the street, but I see them clearly through the illuminated glass tell each other, "I love you," and kiss.

No...

I lost her.

I lost Sailor.