Crossing The Line

Chapter Twenty One

Morgan's POV

I paced around my room as I thought about what I was going to do. I kept thinking about Kelley and I missed her but I was just wasting my time with someone who didn't want me. And it made me angry because she is still the only person on my mind. I simply can't stop thinking about her and it killed me.

After about an hour more, I finally left to head to soccer practice. The past couple days whenever I went to practice I always felt anxious. I always felt that Kelley would pull me aside and tell me that she did like me and that she wanted to be with me.

When I got to the practice field, I let out another long sigh as I laced my boots together and waited for the rest of the team show up. Lately, I was usually the last one to show up to practice but today I was rather early.

Once the team gathered around we waited an extra ten minuets until Coach O'Hara finally arrived.

"Sorry, I'm late everyone. I had some stuff to take care of." Coach O'Hara says. She tells us to do drills and what not and like many times before I could feel her eyes on me. She was always watching me and before I was fine with it but now it just made me feel even more uncomfortable to be in her presence.

"Are you okay?" JJ asks while we all take a water break considering today was one of the hotter days in St. Simons Island.

"Fine, why?" I ask as I set down my gatorade water bottle.

"I don't know... you just seem distant." JJ says as she shrugs her shoulders.

"I'm fine." I say as I force a smile. No one knows about my crush on Coach O'Hara, not even JJ and I felt bad for keeping this from her because she was my best friend but I felt the need to keep it to myself. After all, Coach O'Hara was 5 years older than me. I was a senior in college and I would be graduating in a couple months but why was I think about it? My chances of being with Coach O'Hara were lower than ever before.

"If you needed someone to talk to, you know you can come to me, right?" JJ asks as we both head back onto the field to continue the scrimmage.

"I know." I say as I smile back at JJ. She lays a hand on my shoulder before she runs off to the other side of the field. I turn my head and see Coach O'Hara staring at me. I look away and shake the thoughts away from my head and I continue playing.

Coach O'Hara blew her whistle signaling a yellow card for me for slide tackling and for the first time in what felt like years she pulled me aside.

"See me after practice, okay?" Is all she says before she lets us continue the scrimmage. At that point, my heart was pounding. What did she want from me?

Once practice came to an end I literally felt sick to my stomach at the thought of actually talking to Kelley after almost two weeks of not talking at all. It was going to be awkward and I felt the need to prepare myself.

I hung around for a bit until the rest of the team was gone before I walked over to Kelley's car where she was placing things into her trunk.

"You wanted to see me." I say as I try and keep my head down but I almost couldn't because I wanted to stare into her eyes that I missed so much.

"Yeah... how are you?" She asks me as she crosses her arms. I look at her hand and I tried not to make it obvious but my eyes widened when I saw that there was no longer a ring on her finger.

"Okay." I reply as I shrug my shoulders.

"Really?" She says and I just shake my head no. I really wasn't okay and I wasn't even ashamed to admit it.

She lets out a sigh. I watch as she runs her hand through her hair before she looks me in the eyes for the first time in a while. I found myself already getting lost in them that I had to look away.

"Morgan... I'm sorry and I wanted you to know that I... I miss you." Kelley finally says and my ears almost perk up at those words.

"Don't say that just because you feel bad for me, I don't need pity. We both know this won't work out, you're my coach." I say.

"I know... but Morgan, I really like you. And I am not saying that I missed you out of pity... I really missed you. I miss seeing you smile, I miss being around you all the time and having conversations. I just miss you."

"Kelley..."

"No... Don't say anything else, just don't." Kelley says. She gives me a small smile as she pulls on the door handle of her car and slides into the drivers seat.

I just nod as I swing my bag over my shoulder.

"I'll drive you." Kelley says. I look up at her and there was a small smile on her face and for the first time I actually smiled too. I slid into the front passenger seat as Kelley began to drive me home.