Crossing The Line

Chapter Sixty Six

Several months later
Kelley's POV

I made it to the team hotel and it was such a relief to be back with people I was so familiar with. We had three friendlies to prepare for and afterwards, we would be back to doing whatever we wanted.

I walked into my room and I felt my heart skip a beat when I saw Christen sitting on her bed. I completely forgot about what went down between the two of us when she stopped by to visit me here in New York. 

Now, I was going to dread these next few weeks because I had to see Christen and more importantly I had to see Morgan. I set my stuff on the floor and sat on my bed and Christen looked at me with a smile.

"Hey." She says as she puts her phone down and looks at me.

"Hey." I say as I run my hand through my hair.

"Listen, I don't want this to be awkward for you. If you want, I can switch rooms." Christen says as she starts to stand up but I stop her.

"No, it's fine." I say with a smile and Christen looks at me for a while and nods.

"So, we're okay?" Christen says and I nod my head yes and a small smile formed on her face as she wrapped me into a hug. Well, I guess things were going to be fine with Christen and I but the thought of Morgan made me feel a little uneasy.

"I'm going to see, Alex. She has my headphones so I'll be back." I say and Christen nods with a smile before grabbing her phone again. I leave our room and walk down the hall to Alex's room before someone bumped into me.

I looked up and saw Morgan pulling her luggage from behind her.

"Oh sorry." She says as she looks up at me. 

"Not a problem." I say as I start to walk past her but she calls my name.

"So uh... can we talk later?" Morgan asks.

"About what?" I ask.

"I just want to talk, okay?" Morgan says and this time I kept my mouth shut and just nodded. I didn't want things to be weird between us but at the same time I was kind of jealous of her. She moved on perfectly fine and she was happy and here I was an absolute mess.

I let out a sigh as I knocked on Alex's door and Tobin appeared in the door frame.

"Hey, is Alex there?" I ask and Tobin yells out her name and Alex later appears.

"What's up Kels?" Alex says as she crosses arms, and I was pretty sure she could read the expression on my face.

"It's Morgan.... she said she wants to talk to me." 

"Then talk to her Kels." Alex says but I shake my head no. It wasn't going to be that easy.

"It's not easy, Alex. It's different and you should know that." 

"She's not going to hurt you, Kelley. She want to talk so I think you should talk to her. Straighten things out and who knows, maybe things will turn out good in the end." Alex says as she shrugs her shoulders.

"Thanks...now can I have my headphones?" I ask and Alex let out a laugh as she handed them to me. I said thanks before she closed the door. I walked back to Christen and I's room and the moment I got there I began to pace around.

"Seriously stop. You're making me dizzy." Christen says as she threw a pillow at me but I ignore her. I felt like I had to mentally prepare myself to face Morgan and talk to her. The encounter we had at the coffee shop was a one time thing and considering I have to face her for a couple weeks drove me insane.

Yes, I absolutely still had feelings for her but I knew it was wrong too. I was just so conflicted. I should be happy for her shouldn't I? She is really happy with Chloe and I don't want to be the reason why she is unhappy again.

After dinner, I walked down to Morgan's room and knocked on her door. It didn't take long before JJ appeared in the door frame and I guess she knew because she left within seconds. I walked into the room and saw Morgan reading a book.

"Hey." I say as I sit on JJ's bed and face Morgan. She set her book down and stared at me for a while before she opened her mouth to say something.

"Listen, I want you to know that I am happy with Chloe, I really am and I wouldn't be telling you this if I didn't care about you because I still do. You're the first person to discover who I am as a person and I know things aren't the same between us but I still want you to be part of my life."

"Why? After hurting you, you want me in your life?" 

"Of course I do, I'm not pushing you away like that but if this isn't what you want then just tell me. Tell me how you're feeling." Morgan says and I could see she was on the verge of tears and it was going to be my fault that she was crying.

"You want to know how I feel? Fine. Morgan, I love you and no matter how hard I try not to I still do. You don't even know how hard it is to see you with Chloe but I can't do anything about that can I? She makes you a lot happier than I ever did and there's no one to blame but me. You don't need to pity me and the only reason why you're saying all of this is because you feel so bad for me because I can't love anyone else but you."

"Kelley.. it's not like that-"

"No, Morgan, it's exactly like that. You've moved on and I haven't and it's no ones fault but mine." I say and I watch as Morgan wipes a tear away from her face. "We're done here." I say as I stand up and start heading for the door but she grabbed my arm.

"I'm sorry, Kelley." 

"For what? Being happy?" I ask and she stayed silent. I gave her one last look before walking away from her.