Crossing The Line

Chapter Twenty Three

Morgan's POV

 I pull away from Kelley and her eyes were widened in shock. I kissed her, only because I didn't want to see her cry and only because it felt like it was the right thing to do. I backed away from her and there was no expression on her face and I began to worry.

"I'm so sorry... I didn't mean-"

"Morgan... I need to go." Kelley says as she grabs her purse that she left on the kitchen table and she slowly backs away towards the door. I could have sworn I felt a tear in my heart as she looks me in the eyes, she probably hated me for what I did.

"Kelley..." I call her name but she just shakes her head as she looks down to the floor. She basically ran out the door and I let her. I knew that I made such a terrible mistake but this time there was no turning back.

What was done, was done and I knew that I was going to be in trouble. I was putting myself in a position that I didn't want to be in. I felt so many different emotions and I just didn't know how to control them because I have never felt this way towards someone before. This was all new to me. All I know is that I have never felt this way towards someone in my life, it was only Kelley who sparked something in me.

I kissed her.

I have know idea if it was the right thing to do but all I know is that I enjoyed the kissed so much. The way her lips felt against mine, they were so soft and I wanted to kiss her more but when I felt that she wasn't kissing me back, I forced myself to pull away.

It was so wrong for me to kiss her but I had to, even though she was my god damn soccer coach, I had to kiss her. I honestly can't believe that I even had the guts to kiss her on the spot and I knew that I messed up big time. 

I let out a frustrated sigh as I marched up to my room and I slammed the door closed even if no one was here to listen to my frustration. I was almost embarrassed I literally felt sick to my stomach and I hated this feeling of confusion and loneliness. 

I had know idea what I was doing and what I was getting myself into but I know that Kelley was different. 

I decided I was going to sleep on it until tomorrow.

*

I woke up feeling sick. Not the kind of sick with a cough or a sneeze. It was the kind of sick where you felt nervous that you wanted to throw up. I felt so lonely and afraid and I simply didn't know what to do.

I thought about last nights events and I thought about Coach O'Hara and I began to wonder how she felt or what she felt. I was so desperate to see her today at practice, I wanted to talk to her, ask if she was okay and what not. 

I wanted to talk about last night.

I waited until 4 o'clock to get ready for practice and when the hour came, I quickly dressed, grabbed my duffle bag, and I was out the door within minuets.

I walked slowly to practice, I was debating wether I should keep walking or if I should just turn back. I was starting to get nervous at the thought of seeing Coach O'Hara. What was she going to think? What if she was mad at me?

I had know idea what to expect. What if she didn't even come to practice? 

I let out a sigh as I got to the soccer field. I set my bag down and I began to lace up my boots. Soon, the rest of the team showed up. Everyone but Coach O'Hara and I felt defeated yet relieved at the same time.

After waiting for a couple more minuets, her car finally appeared in the parking lot. I watched as she got out of her car and she opened the trunk to get the soccer equipment needed for today's practice. 

I took a deep breath as she approached us. I studied the expression on her face and she seemed pretty calm, she didn't look upset. Or maybe it was because she was simply trying to hide it. I shook the thoughts away as practice began.

The entire time, not once did Coach O'Hara look up at me, she couldn't even look me in the eye when we had a team huddle and I could feel my heart beating out of my chest like it was about to explode.

Maybe it was.

"Are you okay?" JJ asked as she stood next to me.

I slowly nodded my head as I kicked the soccer ball that sat in front of me. JJ just nodded and I know that she knows I wasn't in the mood to talk to anyone. That's what I love about her, she understood me as a person.

Finally, practice was over. It was a relief that I actually made it through the entire practice without wanting to break down. I went over to my bag and when I opened my bag I saw a green sticky note sitting inside.

Morgan, I need to talk to you after practice
Kelley

Great.