Crossing The Line

Chapter Forty Four

Morgan's POV

Everything that could have possibly went wrong happened. It was almost like life just blew up in my face and it was the end.

This was the end of everything for me.

I gave Kelley one last look before I ran off with tears running down my cheeks as I ran all the way home. I sat on the front steps and just stared outside. I was exhausted of everything. I was tired of trying to get people to love me and care about me. I was tired of trying. I am so god damn tired of everything that I have to put up with.

My mom was right, I was never good enough for anyone and I never will be. I built walls around my heart and I knocked them down because I thought someone loved me but I was wrong. God, I should have known. Tearing down those walls was the worst decision I have ever made.

How could I be so stupid to let Kelley into my life just for her to play with my feelings. I trusted her and I can't believe that I did. She never even cared about me, all she thought about was herself.

I sat on my porch steps for hours and before you know it the sun was starting to set. I stared up at the sky just wishing that I can get out of this hell hole. This place has caused me so much misery and I just wanted to leave but I didn't know where I would go or where I would end up. So, I was basically stuck here.

"Been out here all day?" I hear someone say. I look up and see Lauren the girl who drove me home the other day. She looked at me with a warm smile before she sat on the steps next to me.

"Are you okay?" She asks me and I shake my head no. It wasn't worth lying to anyone because I wasn't okay. If anything, I wanted to be done with everything. Just drop everything and give up.

"Morgan, right?" Lauren says as she sits on the steps next to me. I was honestly quite surprised that she still remembered who I was but I was scared. Every single time I let someone into my life and emotions someone always ends up getting hurt and usually that someone was me. I couldn't let that happen again. Not this time.

"Why are you still crying?" She asks with deep concern growing in her eyes.

It was like a bunch of flashbacks happening all at once. I thought about my mom the way she beat me, the way she treated me and how she would have been better off without me. She wish I hadn't been born. She wished that I didn't exist. That was what my own mom said to me and she just goes off into the night not even caring that I exist. Not knowing that I was so alone and vulnerable.

I thought about JJ how she was my best friend and it was my fault that she decided to leave. I lied to her, I betrayed her when we swore to each other that we would always have each others backs. We would always be there for each other but that promise was far from broken. She promised she would never leave my side but here I am with no one on either side of me.

I thought about Kelley and how she was the first person that I have ever fallen in love with and I knew that she was going to be the last. She was the first person who I let in my life that I gave my heart too and she just threw it away like it was nothing. I gave her a lot of me that I have never given anyone in my entire life and for her to just stomp over my heart hurt like hell. But it was me again, wasn't it? It was my fault that she found someone better to be with.

"I'm scared." I say, not realizing that a tear had fallen from my cheek. I fell into Lauren's shoulder and started crying uncontrollably and Lauren put her arms around me.

"It's okay." She said in a soothing voice as she made hand moving circles on my back. Then my uncontrollable crying fit stopped and Lauren looked at me in a way that made me feel safe again. "Is this your home?" She asks me as she looks up at the small, cracked house that I lived in. I slowly nod my head yes and she bit her bottom lip.

"Where's your mom?" She asks me.

"Away."