Crossing The Line

Chapter Sixty One

Kelley's POV

It has been two weeks since Morgan left me and I was a mess. I know I was and I wasn't afraid to admit it. Last week I got cleared to play soccer and do whatever but everything felt different now.

I guess when you lose the person you love, you forget yourself along the way. That's the worse part about all of this. You're just so used to doing life with the person you love and then one day, everything changes. One day, they're just gone.

I love Morgan and I had absolutely no right to because I was the reason why she had left. I had know idea where she was or what she was doing and I was worried sick. Yes, we aren't together anymore but it didn't stop me from caring for her.

I slowly got out of bed and saw a note on my night stand.

I'm out to get coffee and breakfast for us
Alex

I let out a sigh as I walked to my bathroom. I was thankful that I still had Alex around, she kept me sane for the most part but she still has a life of her own so she's not always around to keep me company.

I washed my face and changed into a clean set of clothes before walking into the kitchen. That's when I see a girl sitting at the kitchen table. She turns her head when she sees me I realize it was Morgan.

Her hair was no longer the usual brown hair color, this time it was mostly brown with streaks of blonde. She still looked beautiful.

"What are you doing here?" I ask as I slowly walk towards her.

"This is some of your stuff." Morgan says as she acknowledges the box that sat on the table next to her. My guess, it was just a bunch of t shirts or sweatshirts that she took from me.

It broke my heart knowing that there was a very slim chance of having her back in my life to love her and care for her.

"You didn't have t-"

"Don't, Kelley. Please don't start anything." Morgan says.

"Start what?" I ask curious to hear what she has to say.

"The whole I want you back in my life shit. You've broken my heart twice and I'm through with it. I'm through with you."

"Morgan, I've changed. I'm not like that anymore." I say but she just shakes her head no and pushed the box towards me. I felt tears form in my eyes and I forced myself to look away from her.

"I'm not falling for this again, Kelley." Morgan says as she runs a hand through her hair.

"Why? Why can't you give me a chance to show you that I'm not that person anymore? I was miserable okay? I was going through a difficult time you have to understand that."

"There is nothing for me to understand, Kelley! You were better off without me. You have Alex who loves you and I know that you can live perfectly fine without me in your damn life. Like I said... you don't know things about me that you should know because you didn't care enough." Morgan says.

"I can't live without you Morgan! Can't you understand that? And what is it that I don't know?" I look up to meet with her eyes and she looked angry.

"Really Kelley? This is what you don't know!" Morgan says as she rolls up her sleeves revealing pale white scars up and down her arms.

She cut herself.

"I did this because of you! I cared about you, Kelley and I loved you but you couldn't love or care for me back."

"I do love you."

"Seriously, Kelley! After three weeks you finally have the nerve to tell me you love me? Well guess what? There is someone else out there who loves me and cares about me in a way that you didn't know how! She knows things about me that you don't because you were too oblivious to know!"

"Who then! Who out there loves you more than I do?" I ask then it went silent. "Why do I have a feeling that you're with someone?" I ask as I wipe a tear with the back of my hand.

"Because I am with someone." Morgan says as she looks me in the eyes.

"You cheated on me when we were together didn't you? That's why it was so easy for you to push me away. That's why it's so easy for you to move on. Because you were with someone else, right?"

Morgan didn't say anything and I knew I was right.

"Well you know what, Morgan? You just lost someone that loved you so why don't you get the hell out of my apartment."

"Kelley..."

"I said get out! And I never want to hear from you or talk to you ever again! Now get out!" I yell and it didn't take long before she was out the door. Then the door opened again and I saw Alex appear in the door frame as I sat on the floor in a puddle of my own tears.

"She's with someone, Alex... and I... I told her I didn't love her when really she's the only person I'll ever love." I mumble into her chest as she wraps me into a hug.

"It's okay... it's going to be okay." Alex whispers into my ear. Deep down, I knew that I wasn't going to be okay.