Crossing The Line

Chapter Forty Five

Kelley's POV

I called out her name but she was gone and it was my fault. Quickly, I placed everything inside my car before driving off back home and the entire time, tears rolled down my cheeks. I got home, parked my car in the driveway, and ran up the steps to my front door.

I heard Alex call out my name but I ran up to my room and before I could even slam the door shut, Alex held the door open and looked at me with concern in her eyes. It was the same expression that she had on her face whenever she knew that something was wrong.

"Hey, hey, what's wrong?" She asks as she sits on the edge of my bed next to me but my uncontrollable sobs prevented me from answering. She wrapped her arm around me and pulled me into her as I cried in her shoulder.

"I'm sorry." She whispers as she kisses the top of my head. Finally, when my crying subsided I pulled away from her and wiped my eyes with the back of my hand.

"She's gone, Alex." I whisper.

"Morgan?" She asks but I was pretty sure she knew the answer to that.

"She thought I was cheating on her with you..."

"Kelley.. I'm sorry. I.... I should go." Alex says as she stands up and heads for the door.

"Alex, stay."

*

Later that night, Alex and I laid in my bed and for a while it went silent between the two of us. I kept on replaying every single word that Morgan said to me and I felt so lost and heart broken and I have never felt this way before. I loved her. I love Morgan and now, she thinks I'm a lying bitch.

It was my fault and there was no one else to blame and I knew that Morgan would be beating herself up about this thinking that it was her fault. I didn't want her to be alone, especially tonight. I wanted to make things right between us but I was pretty sure that I was the last person she wanted to see and she had every right to be mad at me.

I know she has a hard time trusting people and that's probably why I felt more awful. She trusted me and in some ways I broke that trust simply by falling asleep next to Alex unintentionally.

"You okay?" I hear Alex whisper.

"Honestly, no." I say as I turn so I could face her.

"Are you going to be?

"I guess so... I love her Alex and she left." I say. I felt tears form in my eyes.

"Maybe she'll come back, things take time remember? She'll forgive you one day, just give her time and space." Alex says with a small smile as she uses her thumb to wipe my tears just like she always did back in the days.

"Have you ever loved someone so much that it hurt to love them? But then you realize that loving that person was so wrong."

Alex looked at me as she furrowed her brows, "I have and it hurts." She says as she looks me in the eyes with her blue piercing ones.

"Listen, Kelley. I know what it's like to love someone and for them to not love you back it's such an awful feeling. It's tragic and your heart will break but you have to do anything and everything you can to make sure that you're still standing and that you wish for something more. I know you love Morgan and I know she loves you, but sometimes we need to find something else that we want. Whether that's love or something else. You'll find someone that loves you more than you love that someone, yes, you love Morgan but what if there's someone else out there who you might fall in love with?"

"I don't think it's possible to love someone like I loved Morgan. She trusted me, Alex. And I broke that trust." I say with another tear rolling down my cheek.

Alex strokes my cheek and gives me a small smile, "Do you like who you are?"

"I don't know how to answer that." I say confused.

"Easy, yes or no."

"Alex, it's not like that." I say with a sigh.

"Answer the question, Kels." Alex says with a small laugh.

"I don't know, okay?"

"I don't care what you think, Kelley and I didn't expect for you to give me a direct answer... my point is, I love you for who you are. Don't let one heart break change you into someone you're not."

"I'm not letting it change me, Alex."

"Then smile, live in the moment because that's what matters."

Tears rolled down my cheeks and I was wrapped in my best friends arms.