Crossing The Line

Chapter Forty One

Kelley's POV

I set my phone down and my heart was still racing. I couldn't believe what I had just done but I knew that it was the right decision for myself but all I felt was pain so at the same time, I felt like this was the wrong decision to make.

I just got off of the phone with Jill Ellis because I came out of retirement and in three weeks I was going to be back with USWNT for the She Believes Cup and after, I was going back to my club team in New Jersey. I did this only because I knew that my soccer career was not over and because I still had so much more to give.

But yet again, what about Morgan? What about her college team? I slammed my fist in frustration as I buried my head into my hands as I began to rethink all of the decisions that I made.

I picked up my phone and I called Morgan but there was no answer. I needed someone to talk to, but who? Who would understand what I just did? I looked through my contacts and I landed on Alex Morgan. She was my best friend from high school and we've stuck with each other all these years.

"Kelley! Hey how are you?" She asks as she picks up on the third ring. It was calming hearing her raspy voice through the phone.

"Okay I guess." I reply. All I could think about was Morgan and when I thought about her my heart would break all over again.

"You don't sound so sure... are you okay Kels?" She asks and I can hear the concern in her voice and right now, I wish she was here with me. Ever since I retired I never really looked back on what I was leaving behind and now, I just really missed my best friend.

"I miss you, Alex."

"Awe, I miss you too. But honestly, that can't be the reason why you sound upset." Alex says and I loved how she can easily read me even if we weren't near each other. Ever since we met, we just clicked and that's how we became best friends.

"Hey, I have to go. I'll talk to you later!" Alex says and with that, the line went dead and silence filled my house and I hated it. I hated the silence and I hated being alone. I guess I was never used to being alone considering there was someone always at  my house but lately, it was just me.

I called Morgan again and like last time there was no answer and I felt defeated. Was she avoiding me? Was she ignoring me for a reason? Did I do something wrong?

I tried replaying every second I was with her and I couldn't think of anything that I could have done. I mean, we had sex but she said she was fine with it and she also wanted it. I ran my hand through my hair once again not realizing what the time was.

I was exhausted and I didn't even do anything today. I stayed home and just thought about everything and I didn't realize until now how much of my day consisted of thinking about Morgan. I love that girl and right now, she was just gone. I couldn't get a hold of her.

Suddenly, there was a knock on my door and I felt my heart begin to race. What if it was Morgan? What would she say to me? What would I say to her? I take a deep breath as I open the door and a large smile formed on my face as Alex stood at my door with a luggage next to her.

"I got the earliest flight I could get." She says with a smile. I jump into her arms and I breathe a sigh of relief seeing my best friend here.

"You didn't have to come down here, Alex." I say as I jump off of her and look into her blue eyes.

"Of course I had to. You needed me and you know I'm always here." Alex says as she wraps an arm around me and pulls me into her.

"Well, come on in." I say with a smile as I step to the side to let her through. I grab her luggage and place it in the living room and I made us both a cup of coffee as we both sat on the couch.

"So... what's really bothering you Kelley? I know something is wrong and I can see it in your eyes." Alex says as she grabs my hand and gives me an encouraging smile.

"I did something and I don't know if I messed up or not... and I'm so scared."