Souls

Down

POV Saja

Zum wiederholten Mal vibrierte mein Handy in meiner Jackentasche, was ich gekonnt ignorierte. Ich saß seit ungefähr einer halben Stunde im Auto, weil das fahren für mich sowas wie Therapie war. Sam zu sehen, sie in meiner Nähe zu haben... Unbewusst drehte ich das Radio auf. Natürlich lief Halestorm. Ich murmelte leise den Text von "I'm not and angel" mit.

You made a mistake
On the day that you met me
And lost your way
You saw all the signs
But you let it go
You closed your eyes

I shoulda told you to leave
Cause I knew all the time you couldn't handle me
But you're hard to resist
When you're on your knees
Begging me

I'll tear you down
I'll make you bleed
Eternally
Can't help myself
From hurting you
When it's hurting me
I don't have wings
So flying with me won't be easy
Cause I'm not an angel
I'm not an angel

Hate being that wall
That you hit
When you feel like you gave it all
I keep taking the blame
When we both know that I'll never change

I'll tear you down
I'll make you bleed
Eternally
Can't help myself
From hurting you
When it's hurting me
I don't have wings
So flying with me won't be easy
Cause I'm not an angel
I'm not an angel

I wasn't always this way
I used to be the one with the halo
But that disappeared when I had my first taste
And fell from grace
It left me
In this place

Well I'm starting to think
Maybe you like it

I'll tear you down
I'll make you bleed
Eternally
Can't help myself
From hurting you
When it's hurting me
I don't have wings
So flying with me won't be easy
Cause I'm not an angel
I'm not an angel
(Yeah)
(Yeah)
I'm not an angel
I'm not an angel
I'm not an angel
I'm not an angel

Es beruhigte mich ein wenig, während meine Gedanken sich um Sam drehten. Gott, wie sehr ich sie vermisste. Als wir uns kennen gelernt hatten, war alles so perfekt. Endlich einmal lief alles gut und dann, ein knappes halbes Jahr später, ging alles den Bach runter. Etwas, wofür ich bis heute keine Erklärung hatte. Der nächste Song, "Love/Hate heartbreak", begann. Wieder flüsterte ich singend den Text mit.

Why did I waste my time
Two steps I don't rewind
Feeling I can't define
I give back to you

(Give it all away)
(Take it all the way)

(Give it all away)
(Take it all the way)
I see my demise
From behind your eyes

I can't pass you by
I give back to you
(Give it all away)
(Take it all the way)

(Give it all away)
(Take it all the way)
(Give it all away)
(Take it all the way)

(Give it all away)
(Take it all the way)
Between love
Between hate

Shake this silence back 'fore it's too late
And it haunts you

And it haunts you
It's a love-hate
Heartbreak
This could be suicide

A kiss with these red knives
Why am I driving blind
I give back to you
(Give it all away)

(Take it all the way)
(Give it all away)
(Take it all the way)
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