Letters to No One

#6

A LETTER TO YOUR ANXIETY AND DEPRESSION.

To someone with a havoc mind:

It's been a while, since I've seen or heard you've talked about your pain. You've been so strong trying to be the keep-it-all together person lately.

I know. I understand.

I know that it's getting hard to say, what you're meant to say without even being misunderstood by those around you. Harder when you're not being heard, without them telling something about their pain. That it's not about you anymore. That their pain is much bigger than yours. That your pain is not a deserving story to be heard of.

But, I tell you now. And I'll tell you, over and over, again. You deserve to be heard. You deserve to be understood. Maybe, you're not just being surrounded with the right people to help you through the deep waters. But, you're troubles are already being taken care of, long before you could worry about them.

It's okay, not to be okay. Cry. Scream. Do everything to get out of that darkness. Cry if you must, crying isn't a sign of being weak. It is just a response to the chaos you're in.

It's okay if you're in deep and troubled waters right now. There is a light at the end of the tunnel, anyway.
I understand how the darkness enveloped you, when no one else is there. I understand how much fear you're having each day.

Remember when you were just a child, how you were so afraid of the dark when your Mama and Papa isn't around? How much you tremble with the sound of the roaring thunder?

You say, "But depression and anxiety isn't, it's where darkness becomes normal and inevitable. It's not just fear. It is a mental illness, where we tend to get swayed by our emotional responses. Where being alone, vulnerable and sadness, becomes too familiar. It's not simply getting out of your fear and facing it. No, it's not."

Yes, it's not just about our fear-the fear of something that's about to happen or the fear of the uncertainty. We all have our own set of fears and frustrations as our journey goes on, but our dark, sad, and empty days you feel is not in control-you are. Darkness comes when you've forgotten about the power of light you have.

Depression and anxiety is just a phase, never let it become your final destination. Breathe, until it turns to surviving. Until surviving becomes living. Step-by-step, little by little, until you've come out of it victorious.

“Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest." Matthew 11:28

Rest now, beloved. You're still a part of His work in progress. Trust the process. Never lose the faith.

You're not alone. You never were. And you will never be. You are loved and you matter. Thank you for fighting today. We'll fight back together.

Sending my warmest embrace sealed with love and care,

@Cloakedlove