Emergence

Chapter 25

Vince smiles brightly at me, slowly putting the veil over my head as he backs away, admiring his work. I feel tears come as he shakes his head, glaring at me.

" Don't even think about it Freya! I spent hours making you look perfect, if you cry I swear I'll hit you!" Vince demands. I stare at him and shake my head as he pulls the veil over my face, smiling brightly as he admires his work.

I hang my head in shame, as I stare at the dress. It's a beautiful dress, but I will never seen it for what it is, I will never see it for it's real beauty. It's a sweetheart cute white dress with beautiful blue gems on the top, it hugs my chest tightly as the skirt pours over like a tiered cake with dark blue layers in it. The veil has small blue gems that drop around my face, I look up staring at the mirror.

This is not how I would ever picture my wedding day. When Edmund explained marriage I always imagined I would be happy on this day. Who am I even kidding? I'm not even marrying the man I love, I'm stuck with Vince. I stare at my white choker which had a blue rose in the center of it, Vince grabs my shoulders as I look at him face in the mirror.

" You're beautiful." Vince whispers shoving his face in my neck. I close my eyes, biting my trembling lip. Vince's warm breath hits my neck as I grab my dress tightly, trying to calm myself down. He lets my shoulders' go as I open my eyes, he smiles at me and shakes his head.

" I'll see you in a little bit." Vince says. I stare at the floor, shaking my head as I tuck a piece of my hair behind my ears.

" Okay." I say. I hear my voice crack as Vince opens the door, walking out of the room. I hear the door close, and lock as I turn around staring at it. What am I doing? I stare at the ceiling, shoving my hands in my lap, taking in a sharp breath.

" Wedding's are supposed to be beautiful, happy and loving occasions. An occasion filled with hope, excitement and actual love." I whisper. I stretch my arm out towards the ceiling, dropping it softly on my forehead.

" Instead, I'm mournful, heavy hearted, hopeless and depressed." I whisper. I slide my hand down to my stomach, slowly setting it down and run my other hand through my hair.

" Where are you when I need you the most?" I whisper. I stare at my ring finger once again and drop my hand on my thigh. " Where are you Edmund?" I whisper. I feel my blood freeze as I hear the piano, tears start to fall down my cheeks as I turn towards the door.

How does he expect me to not cry? Wait a minute, how does he expect everyone to not notice how unhappy I am? This is stupid, there's no way they won't be able to tell just by looking at me that I don't want this.

I wait for a minute, closing my eyes and taking in a deep breath. The last plan I have is to say no, it's my last shot. I slowly touch the warm door knob as I try to calm myself down, I close my eyes, feeling a tear fall down my cheek. There goes my makeup, I'll worry about that later. I open the door, slowly walking outside as the cherry blossom tree blows petals into the wind.

When they crowd meets my face, they all get up with bright smiles. I hold my bouquet close to my dress and start to shake, watching cherry blossoms cover my dress. I look around at the crowd as I notice they all are smiling brightly at me. I stare at them in confusion, as I look back at Vince.

Why can't they see I'm in despair? Can they not see my tears that I know for the fact are black from my mascara? I make my way down the aisle as I notice Sage isn't in the crowd what so ever. I turn to look at the other side and start to shake- he's no there either. When I look back, I notice I've went over the line as I back up.

" We are gathered-" I close my eyes, drowning out the noise tightening the grip on my bouquet. I look at the crowd as women are using handkerchiefs to wipe tears from their eyes. Happy tears, I can imagine everyone in the crowd is reliving their wedding.