Give Me Life

Part 31

*Knock Knock Knock*

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*Amelia's point of view*

My face fell as I opened my front door whilst swallowing a pringle, it was him...Aston...the one person I wasn't ready to see and probably never wanted to see again.

'Look...I know you don't want to talk to me but I need to explain...' he stuttered shuffling his feet

'Ast...I don't want to talk to you right now...' I sniffed; I knew it wouldn't be too long before my tears started falling again

'Please...c....can I come in?...' he said looking at me and blinking a few times.

I knew this problem wasn't going to go away easily and maybe we did need to talk, it would sure clear a few things up...

'Yeah...' I said in no more than a whisper, opening the front door wider as he followed me in and we both sat on the couch...

He sat there for a few seconds just twiddling his thumbs sat on the opposite end of the couch to myself, it was like he was a million miles away. I suppose he didn't really know where to start and I wasn't in the mood to start the conversation...

'Amelia....first let me tell you that what I did was a mistake...ive never regretting something so much in my life...'

'Ast its not that easy...you can't just cover this mess up with apologies...' I said staring at the floor

'I don't want to cover it up...' he said 'Amelia but you have to understand how sorry I am...'

'I know your sorry...but you cheated on me Ast...'

'I know...' he said letting out a huge sigh

'And let me tell you that broke my heart...' I choked, a single tear falling down my cheek as he looked up to me

'Amelia I was missing you...'

'So you thought you'd sleep with someone else...' I laughed sarcastically taking in short and abrupt breaths

'No...look I know what I did was awful but I was missing you and lonely...I wanted to be with you so badly and I knew I couldn't....so that's why I drank so much alcohol, I thought that maybe if I drank into oblivion the pain would go away...but it just made it worse...' he said, his voice weakening and a tear falling down his cheek. For a few seconds I almost felt sorry for him, to know he was missing me was really sweet but it could never cover the fact that he cheated one me, it was something I'd been brought up to never allow

'Ast it cant make up for what you did...we all make mistakes but that was too far...Ast you broke my heart...don't you understand that...' I said breaking down into floods of tears

'So your saying theres not a chance we can try and sort this out...'

'Ast...I...'

'Please...Amelia I promise I'll never hurt you again...I want to prove to you how sorry I am...' he begged

'Ast...its too late...' I said, a stabbing pain in my heart as my tears continued to fall and my breathing rate increased. I didn't really know what it felt like to have a broken heart, but I'm sure it was close to what I was feeling right now. A physical pain in my chest and not a single ounce of energy inside me 'Were over...take this with you' I sniffed passing him the promise ring he'd previously given me

' Amelia no please'

'Sorry Ast' I stuttered, tears still flowing

I sat crying on the couch as Aston got up slowly, took one last look at me and walked out of my house not looking back. I sat there crying as I heard the roar of his engine before he shot off into the distance...