First and Last

Chapter 16

We went out of his room and party with others. I picked a strawberry mojito while he grabbed tequila. We were just wandering in their house, watching as the so called popular dance their hearts out. It’s more of a lap dance or whatever you call it; it’s not advisable for children to watch that. Suddenly, a slow dance played. I think I know the song. I just can’t remember the title. Ellard took my hand and led me on the dance floor. I just look at his eyes and we began to sway.

Remember those walls I built

Well, baby they're tumbling down

And they didn't even put up a fight

They didn't even make up a sound

I found a way to let you in

But I never really had a doubt

Standing in the light of your halo

I got my angel now

I suddenly remembered myself. My wall collapse. I’ll rebuild it, though. But for now? I’ll enjoy being beside him. Just this night.

It's like I've been awakened

Every rule I had you breakin'

It's the risk that I'm takin'

I ain't never gonna shut you out

Everywhere I'm looking now

I'm surrounded by your embrace

Baby I can see your halo

You know you're my saving grace

You're everything I need and more

It's written all over your face

Baby I can feel your halo

Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo halo halo

I can see your halo halo halo

I can feel your halo halo halo

I can see your halo halo halo

I loop my arms around his neck instead of just putting it on his shoulders. I just want to be near him. I can see it on his face that he’ll never leave me and yet, I’m still scared. People do change and the feelings along with it. Can you blame me if the person that I trusted all my life was the one who betrayed me? How can I trust someone again after that?

Hit me like a ray of sun

Burning through my darkest night

You're the only one that I want

Think I'm addicted to your light

I swore I'd never fall again

But this don't even feel like falling

Gravity can't forget

To pull me back to the ground again

[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/b/beyonce/halo.html ]

Feels like I've been awakened

Every rule I had you breakin'

The risk that I'm takin'

I'm never gonna shut you out

Do I really want to take the risk? I don’t think so. I’m going to make it out of this battle unscathed. I won’t take the fall and I’ll be back to my normal and boring life. I don’t want any complications and that’s what he’s going to make. A complicated and hurtful life. I don’t want that, do I? I swear, after this night my life will be back to normal. This night is enough to dream of having someone like him, to assume that the one who’s holding me right now can surely love me for me, not forever but until the end of this lifetime. It’s enough right? Beyond forever. But it’s not for me.