Love Is Forever (Hiccup x reader one-shots)

What You Deserve: For ChildsplaySophie

What You Deserve

For ChildsplaySophie

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WARNING!!!!! This has suicidal thoughts, actions, occurrences, self-harm, but also lots of love. Read only if this will not have a dramatic negative effect on you.

You are 16- ish , Hiccup 17 or 18- ish.

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You put on another fake smile as Snotlout shoved himself in your face. He was "flirting with a beautiful girl," as he claimed. You resisted the long-lasting urge to roll your eyes at the idiotic boy.

"Please go away, Snotlout," you said, softly. You weren't in the mood for annoyances at the moment. I mean, you were never in the mood for annoyances but at this particular moment it was even more unwanted.

"Oh, don't worry, babe. I'm here for you." Your eyebrows pinched together. Snotlout being kind? "Besides, I'm Snotlout. Not everyone can be as gifted and talented as me," he gloated, kissing his muscles. Ah, there it was.

"Don't call me that. I don't like you anymore than one would like a friend that they failed to care about- aka someone they hate. If that much."

"Haha, good one, (N/N)," Tuffnut laughed.

"But-" Snotlout began.

"Snotlout, leave the poor girl alone," Astrid interrupted, stepping in between the two of you.

"Thank you," you whispered in her ear. She gave a slight nod in return, but no one else noticed.

Snotlout walked away, muttering under his breath.

You stared at the ground, tears swimming in your eyes, rubbing your arm awkwardly. You wanted nothing more than to be alone yet not at home.

"(Y/ N)," Hiccup called, placing a hand on your shoulder. You jumped, not expecting the gesture. He saw your teary eyes. "Are you okay?" he asked, concerned.

"What? Oh! Yeah. Perfect. Fine. Perfectly fine. I'm okay. Yup. Okay," you trailed off, looking everywhere except at another person.

"(N/N)," Astrid said, sternly and slowly.

When you said nothing and refused to even look in her direction, she walked over to you and spun you around so she faced you, but you continued staring at the ground. You couldn't show the tears. You couldn't. You just couldn't!

"(N/N), please look at me." You didn't move. "(N/N)!"

"Here, Astrid, let me try," a calm, soothing voice said.

She sighed, "Alright, Hiccup."

Two hands replaced Astrid's on your shoulders. "(Y/ N)," he asked. "(Y/ N), dear, can you please look up at me? Tell us what's wrong. You can trust us."

You kept your head down and slowly shook your head no. No one could help you. And besides, even if they could help, you didn't deserve it.

"Tuff, Ruff, Snotlout, Fishlegs, can you give us some privacy, please?" Hiccup asked. The four nodded and left the dragon academy. "(Y/ N)?" he asked again.

You couldn't take it anymore. A sob slipped through, shaking your shoulders, tears began to pour down your cheeks, your knees buckled, and you began to fall. Hiccup caught you before you hit the ground and he slowly knelt to the ground, holding you against him.

"(Y/ N)?" Astrid asked, frantically. She stood next to you but had no idea of what to do. She had never seen you cry before.

You cried and cried. You cried on Hiccup's shoulder for nearly an hour. The whole time Hiccup and Astrid rubbed small circles on your back and spoke soft, comforting words.