Sometimes I feel as though The Other knows I am still alive. His master knows too. Why they didn't kill me I know not why?
I know one thing that they will kill me. It might be today, tomorrow or in 100 years. It will happen.
I thought about going to to a barren moon and just killing Odin off or using Verdandi to erase his memory of me. I would take her with me.
I would leave right now even but I felt as though I would know the right time to leave.
Verdandi doesn't try to talk to me anymore. She often avoids any contact with me.
I think she is still in withdrawal. She wants to believe that I'm still alive but there are no facts that I am.
I really did want to tell her. She deserved to know the truth.
Both of us thought the other was dead at one time. It seemed it was an endless cycle of death for us.
I watched her train everyday. She worked hard to become the warrior she once was. She wanted to be known again. Not as the girl who fell and was soft towards human. But a woman who could take on a league of Chitauri with only a sword and a shield.
She called her sword the Unknown. She wanted it to be in the English language of humans.
She also had ditched her old human clothes. She wore an warriors outfit. Her mothers actual. Apparently she wore it on earth and was known as Black Snow.
It was almost fitting.
"Verdandi," I called to her one day after she was done training.
"Yes my lord," she bowed.
" I would like you to take a walk with me," I beamed.
"Now?"
"If that is alright?" I smiled as she nodded.
We walked down to the bridge to the Bifrost.
"Why here?" she asked.
"Why not?" I slowly walked on the bridge. The last time I had been on this bridge Thor threw me into the abyss below.
Actual I let go. I didn't regret the decision.
"Did you know Loki would defy you," she asked. Her eyes bore into me. All of the pain inside of her seemed to bounce off me.
"No, I never wanted to tell him." I knew that's would Odin would have made as an excuse.
"If he hadn't know I bet you would have never found me," she let out a long breath.
That thought had never struck me. If I had never found Verdandi where would I be?
Would I have done any of this if she hadn't fell in the first place?
"Maybe if you hadn't fell Loki would be still the same person," I explained.
"Then we would have been married by then and Sif and Thor would be married and everything would be safe and normal," she ranted.
"I wouldn't have to feel bad about leaving humans behind, a lot of things would be different!" She threw up her hand.
"Yet if you hadn't fell the humans you love know would be most likely dead," I grabbed her arm.
I whispered in her ear.
"You were right."
She stopped breathing. She pushed me away.
"Loki?" she whispered. I nodded. I turn back into myself. I smile at her. She gasps. She hugs me tightly. She then reaches up and kisses me.
It's one of the best feelings in the world. We stand there for a long time.
Now Verdandi knows.
Well I guess I couldn't keep it a secret much longer.
