Challenging Plank Session
While I struggled through a plank, my sister appeared, discussing the concept of distance. Plopping herself onto my back, she chanted the word "Distance," making the word more grating than ever.
She elaborated that distancing was essential due to my Snob Bitch persona, emphasizing the need to act normal around family. Even as she sat on me, I maintained my plank. Just because I'm silent that doesn't mean I'm calm
I'm just acting because no one plans a murder out loud
Burying her six feet under the ground would be amazing
Ignoring her, I focused on my exercise, annoyed by her antics. She attempted to distract me with flirtatious comments and observations, but I refused to engage. Her constant presence was testing my patience, and I wished she would stop her "craft 101."
Upcoming Plans
"HAVE YOU HEARD THE GOOD NEWS?"
"We are going back to the Philippines!" My sister excitedly announced our return to the Philippines, detailing her career plans.
"Don't kid around" I rolled my eyes at her
"Am not! Ask Aunt and Grandpa if you want" Despite my skepticism, she insisted it was true, then left my room. Her energetic presence was both comforting and irritating.
Thank goodness she's out of my room
But I'm still in misery because she'll never get out of my life, I admit I love my sister
Still, she's so annoying
And I hate annoying people
"Baby Storm! You have a visitor!" Aunt shouted from the living room
"She or He?!" I shouted asking my so-called visitor's gender
"He!"
"Tell him that I don't give a shit! I don't wanna face annoying creatures right now! And that visitors suck! Thanks, Aunt!" I voiced my annoyance, slamming my bedroom door. Frustration with annoying people was becoming a common theme.
Now, what to do?
I logged into my Instagram after months of neglect.
Kaden's post caught my eye, 'Storm where art thou?' but I brushed it off. Connecting with others seemed trivial in my current state.
He posted our picture together in Brisbane
Kaden's my childhood friend and he's Tyler's cousin
I think I could care less about me not messaging him, besides, he'll not break his heart about it
I want to sleep
"Storm" I heard a familiar voice say from my bedroom door that made me stand up on my feet
"I'm sorry"
"I'm really sorry"
He walked towards me and enveloped me in a hug that made me frozen on my spot and he continued saying the words I don't wanna hear
"I'm sorry for hurting you" he pleaded for forgiveness, expressing deep regret for hurting me. His presence and apology stirred conflicting emotions within me.
"Let go," I told him
"Let me go!" I shouted but he just tightened his hold on me
"I don't need you, Tyler"
"I don't! I'm done with you!"
"I don't need you to wipe my tears away, I don't need you when I'm sad, I don't need your hug just to make me calm! I don't want you in my life! I'm not the weakling who needs to be taken care of anymore! I don't need your lips just to make me feel happy! I want you out of my life! I want you to get away from me!"
"Why can't you do that?" I asked him almost in a whisper
Tyler's attempts to explain and seek forgiveness led to a tense exchange. I expressed my desire to move on from him and questioned his inability to let go. Despite my resolve, his words and tears wore down my defenses.
"Storm, stop crying, please" he begged
"I'm so sorry, Storm, please, forgive me, let me explain" he whispered in my ear but I pushed him away
"Get out"
"Storm, hear me out, I love you"
"I love you! What you saw isn't what you think, I'm not cheating on you, please, I did not cheat on you" he whispered and he started sobbing
"Storm"
"I hate you" I muttered and let out a sob that made him tighten his hold on me
He buried his face in my neck and I let him
I found myself torn between wanting to push him away and being drawn to his presence. The weight of the situation and the intensity of my emotions left me feeling overwhelmed and exhausted.
Why am I feeling this way?
I couldn't deny that I still had feelings for Tyler, but I also couldn't ignore the pain he had caused. As I tried to navigate this emotional maze, I realized that finding clarity would be a difficult journey.
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