Toxic Devotion

Chapter 2 : Unexpected death

(A/N : warning: do not get triggered, a phrase in this chapter refers to cutting, there is no actual description but still...if you're going through this you're not alone, and if it's about other people bringing you down know they aren't worth a single cut or your tears, you're beautiful, stay strong love)

Ashley's p.o.v

Sarah had left and I was home alone, I just sat there watching TV and ordered a pizza. Gosh I keep on forgetting that my diary is lost and someone could have taken it..if someone reads it, I'm so screwed. I got a phone call from an unknown number,

'Hello?' I answered.

'Hi Ashley Carter?' A female voice said.

'Yes that's me' I replied.

'I'm your dad's nurse, Melissa Good' she started. Dad...?

'Yes, what's wrong?' I asked concerned.

'Its really hard to explain on the phone...is there anyone else with you right now?' She asked.

'No I'm home alone my brother is not here' I said.

'Isn't there anyone older than you?' She asked again.

'No, Im home alone, what's wrong?' I asked getting worried and annoyed.

'Cant you get to the hospital now?' She asked ignoring my question.

'I don't have a car, can you please tell me what's wrong?!' I asked my voice getting higher.

'Ashley I'm sorry, we tried everything we could...' She started.

'Don't just, WHAT DO YOU MEAN EVERYTHING YOU COULD, WHAT'S HAPPENING , WHERE'S MY DAD?' I yelled.

'We're really sorry ashley' she continued.

'JUST TELL ME' I shrieked.

'Your father passed away-' the phone fell from my hands.

I think I stopped breathing for a couple of seconds, before realizing what was happening. I fell to the ground and cried my heart out, pulling at my hair, not being able to believe what I just heard, I cried so hard, I couldn't stop, the pain was unbearable, knowing you're never going to see the person who means to you the most again, not being able to smell their Cologne, not being able to hug them, promise them to make them proud, or even talk to them, tell them how much you love them, that you can't live without them, that you need them. I think I stayed an hour screaming, crying, breaking every single object on my way, before I decided to order a cab and went instantly to the hospital. This was way too much, I was still in shock, Im going to the hospital thinking maybe he's still alive, and that's all just a bad dream, a nightmare, I'm soon going to wake up, and see him, and hug him tightly, and tell him that nothing will ever separate me from his love again.

I finally reached the hospital and ran towards my dad's room, I entered it and it was empty.

'Ashley carter' The nurse said behind me.

'Wheres my dad?' I asked.

'I'm so sorry ashley' she said.

'Where is my dad?' I asked again before breaking down.

'Im here for you, don't worry' she said hugging me.

I had first lost my mom, and now my dad. My brother is not here, that means I'm all alone right now, and I don't think anyone will be able to help me.

'Come with me I can take you home' she said.

'No' I just shook my head crying even more. All she could do was hold my hand, saying it will be okay.

'I need my brother' I said crying.

'Ill call him right now' she said before running towards the receptionist. A few minutes later she came back saying he did not answer.

How could he leave me suffer on my own in a night as endless as this one? A night that will probably never end, cause it seems like life has stopped for me, all I feel is the need to cry and scream the word dad. My heart was aching, screaming, begging for my dad to come back, but he won't.

'Listen we cant stay here, I already informed your aunt, she's taking the next plane she'll be here tomorrow morning, come with me and stay with me for the night, you can't stay alone' she said. She honestly looked like a perfect mother, maybe she was one.

'How do you know my aunt?' I asked.

'Its the hospital, we're supposed to know those details in case of accidents' she said.

'This isn't an accident, this is killing me' I cried. It's not like a pep talk was going to bring my dad back right now.

I went back home, unlocked the door and went in. I knew as a matter of fact my life was going to change. I sat on the floor and stayed like that all night, I used any sharp object that could hurt me...I never did that before, ever since I came to this new school, everything changed. I always believed I was this one good person living in a world full of bad people, from now on, it's me against the world.

I wanted to write what happens in my diary, but it was lost, so I just took a random notebook and started writing..

Death leaves a heartache,
No one can heal,
Love leaves a memory,
No one can steal.

^(A/N : it's a quote I know Im not the one who actually came up with it XD )

Sorry guys if the first chapters seem depressing, I promise it will get better, but first I'd like to show that the main character went through bitter experiences. 💞