Letters to Ashton

Day One

23 September, 2013
Day 1 without you

Why? Why did you do this? What made you want to leave me, to leave us, to leave everyone? Did you forget about how we would all feel when you made up your fate?

What happened to our future together? All the plans we had made? Your family? What about your fans? Were you not thinking of these things when you were the one deciding on how you would be leaving this precious (or at least was at the time when you were still roaming on it) world?

What made you want to do it? Was it me? Was it someone else? Did someone tell you to do this? I can't help but let my mind wander to all of the different reasons as to why you could have made yourself go through with this.

Do you realise what you have done to me, Ashton? You left me. Left me without a goodbye, an I love you, a reason, anything.

What am I supposed to do now? Am I just supposed to live without you by my side? I can't do that, Ashton. You know I can't do that.