Letters to Ashton

Day Twelve

4 October, 2013
Day 12 without you

I hate this place. They say I will be leaving soon but I do not believe them.

It has only been about 2 days, I think -I am not so sure, I can barely remember anything anymore-, since I have been here and nothing has changed.

I still miss you. I still cry. I am still hearing those awful voices in my head telling me to bang my head against the wall. Same as the day that I found out you were gone.

Please help me, Ashton. I do not like feeling this way. Make the pain go away, please?