Letters to Ashton

Day Fifty Three

12 November, 2013

Day 53 without you

You know what song I have been listening to nonstop? Moments. You know, by One Direction?

That song speaks all of my feelings.

"If I could only turn back time you know I'd be your life, your voice, your reason to be."

"Close the door, throw the keys. Don't want to be reminded, don't want to be seen. Don't want to be without you."

I wish I could just end my life for good. Literally close the door and throw the keys.

I don't want to be without you, Ashton. I don't have anyone left. I only ever had you.

Help me to be as strong are you were, please?