I've Never Dreamed

Part 62 (LAY's POV)

I hurry out the room, not paying any mind to Kai. He's a bitch, so I'm just going to leave it at that.

Looking around the inside of the building, I think back to the last words I said to Jiao. I pretty much broke up with her. I was so mad at her I didn't even want to look at her face, and I know for a fact I hurt her feelings. Jiao doesn't like to cry, as a matter fact, she hates it. I really hope she's not crying. If she is, it's because I made her. I don't think I'll be able to hold myself together if I see her crying.

*Although Lay's dreading to she her cry, he wants to be the one to stop her tears*

I rush out the building into the front side. I jog to the grass area looking around for Jiao, then an idea hits me. 

"She's probably with Mei!" I shout, not being able to control my emotions. I go to pull out my phone, but then stop when I hear someone.

"Who are you looking for?" I soft voice asks me. I turn around immediately to see who it is.

"Uhh..."  A women in her early twenties, is standing in front of me. "A women with the name Jiao...does it ring a bell by any chance?" I know I should call Mei's phone and just ask her, but I don't want to be rude to this women.

"Oh yeah! I work with her at the news department. I'm Choi de." I start to say my name, but she continues, "I know, you're Zhang Yixing...anyways, let me show you to Jiao." She smiles bright and starts walking away from me. I follow her back into the building unaware of where she's taking me, but if it's to Jiao, then we need to hurry.

"So how long have you known Jiao?" I ask, struggling to keep up with Choi De.

"Uh, about 5 years." Her tone lowers, and I stare at the back of her head. Five years ago they lived in China...I think.

"I see." See takes me down a hallway that I've already checked for her. "I've already been down this hallway miss. Are you sure know Jiao?" Choi De turns around at my question and smiles. Her smile is starting to scare me a bit.

"Nope." I look at her confused, "I just happen to  be your biggest fan, so sorry for doing this to you..." She mumbles, "HE'S HERE!" 

Right when she shouts around 10 people pop out of rooms with flashing cameras.
My eyes then go back to Choi De, and I get startled when she snaps a picture of me. I cover my face aggravated with the girl and turn around, yet when look up fans are in the way, trying to push their way to me. 

It is now completely crowded in the narrow hallway with both fans and paparazzi's flashing their cameras.

"Let him through, you stingy people!" 

"Can you sign my notepad?!"

"Husband!"

"Lamby!"

People shout. I try to just walk through through them, yet I can't even take a step with out nudging into someone. I see 2 guards in the back of the hallway forcing their way to me. I knew that there were going to be reporters and fans here, but damn.

"MOVE OUT THE WAY!" A voice shouts louder than anyone there, causing everyone to look around confused at who yelled. In an instant, someone grabs my wrists and rips me through the crowd, having me hit everyone in my way.

"Sorry." I repeat until I get out the hallway. I look up t who pulled me so harshly, only to see Jiao standing there bare faced. She doesn't have any make up on, and she looks beyond beautiful. 

The crowd follows us out. More guards are called to come and help escort Jiao and I out of the building. 

We get to the car, where everyone is except Baekhyun and Mei. I grab a hold of Jiao's wrist before she can hop in, then I shut the door.

"What are you doing?!" Her raspy voice shocks my ears as I spin her around to face me.

"Are you angry with me?" I ask staring into her eyes. Now that I can see her perfectly, I can see that her eyes are bit puffy from tears. That's possibly why she took off her make up.

"No, I'm not mad...can we just go please?" Jiao looks down at the road. She's leaning against the black car while I'm standing in front of her, grasping her wrist.

"Then why are you avoiding my eye contact?" I know it's because of what I said earlier, but I want to hear her feelings come from her mouth.

She looks at me like I'm retarded, but then her expression calms. 

"I cheated on you, and you broke up with me. So I'm upset, not mad." She looks to her feet. I watch as a tear slides down the side of her cheek bone. "Well not not at you anyway..."

"About what I said earlier, I'm sorry. I was mad at everything. Not just you." I go to wipe the tear line off her cheek, but she moves her head away, and slips her wrist out of my grasp.

"It's not even what you said that made me upset. I expected those words to be said. It's the fact that you couldn't even look at me Lay." She raises her head up to see me. Tears are filling up her eye sockets.

I clench my jaw and walk away from her, going to the front seat of the car.

I open the passenger seat door.

"I will take the cab." I smile to the driver.

"What? Why?" Suho sits up from the back seat along with Kyungsoo, Xiumin, and Sehun. The other boys are in the other car.

*Suho wants to ask about Kai, but he knows that Lay won't say anything considering he didn't say anything earlier*

"I want to talk to Jiao. I'll be fine." I smile to them.

"Okay. We'll just be waiting at SM for you and Baekhyun then...Sir, please take us straight to SM." Suho sighs and waves me bye. I wink at him and bow to the driver, shutting the door. As the car drives off, I turn back towards Jiao, who is kicking rocks across the road, and walk up to her.

"Walk with me please." I hold out my hand for her to grab. Jiao looks down at it, contemplating whether or not she should take it. She doesn't, causing me to put my hand behind my back embarrassed.

"Okay." She says and we start walking down the road in silence. 

"Earlier, I wasn't thinking. I never ever wanted to hurt you in any way." I stop walking and get directly in front of Jiao, cuffing her hands in mine. I rub her knuckles and watch as she struggles to hold back her tears.

"Lay listen. I'm not mad at you or hurt by you. I hurt myself by kissing him. It's not your fault, so please just stop." She explains, looking at the closed  buildings beside us.

"If it really isn't my fault you're crying, then why won't you look at me?" 

Earlier, I didn't want her in my arms. Now, I want more. I want her to be the happy girl in the world, like she once was.

"There! Happy?!" We make direct eye contact.
Her eyes sting with intensity and it hurts my heart with how empty she looks. A tear drops from my right eye as I quickly lean in and kiss her.

Before I placed my lips on hers, I thought she'd push away, but instead she kisses me back. Right when she opens her mouth, I take my arms and place them around her back, pulling her into a light and meaningful hug, while our tongues do the sharing of emotions.

Jiao then pulls her head back from mine, taking a breath. Her fingertips slide down to the edge of my jawline, while her nose barley touches the tip of mine. Tears are coming down her face, and I can't tell if it's because she's happy, overwhelmed, or sad. All I know is that I'm ready to try and put this Kai incident behind me. I love her too much to not have her in my arms any longer then an hour.

Which brings us to our latest problem. How are we going to stay together, happy? Baekhyun has made his relationship public, but I'm not so sure it's going to turn out as good as he hopes. What he said at the table are all true negatives of me and Baekhyun being in relationship. All it comes down to is if we're willing to go through the risks of being in the relationships we desire. I know I am, but I hope Baekhyun is too.