Autumn
I've never felt so bad, I've been pushing Justin away because he always wants to do things and I just don't want to hurt myself anymore than it already has been hurt. Schools goes back in a week and I bet Nadine and Abby are going to be getting what they want.
Since Lucy left i have pretty much been staying home, Justin always wants to make plans and I can't blame him. But I keep rejecting him with the excuses 'I'm sick' or 'I don't feel too good'
I been up for a while and it's only 9am, I hear foots steps coming towards my room. I bet it's my dad. He steps in and states "Justin is here to see you" uh oh
"Just tell him I'm still sick" I assured "honey, he is down stairs. I let him in, come one Autumn he is dying to see you" I gave in, I walk down stairs in a blanket and see him sitting on my sofa
"Hey" he stands up and walks over to me, he hugs me and I invite him up to my room, we lay up and cuddle on my bed
"I know your pushing me away, why?" Justin's plays with my hair, I don't know how to answer that
I bite my lip "I don't mean to, I just don't know what's going on with me"
"Neither and why are you nervous?" He mentioned
"Huh?"
"Whenever you get nervous you bite your lip"
How the fuck does he know that
"Oh, I don't know" I smuggle more into Justin then the door opens and my fathers comes in
"I'm going to work, so I'll be back sometime tonight" he doesn't mind that I cuddle with Justin
"Okay sir, Autumn is sleeping at my house tonight anyways... I don't want her to be alone today" Justin absolutely knows something is up and he knows that is going to get it out of me one way or another
My dad nods and walks out "I'm sleeping over your house am I?" I questioned
"Yes you are, something is up with you and I really don't want you to be alone. I want you to be with me" he hugs me even more if that's even possible
I don't know how to tell him. I don't have to and I won't, it doesn't matter. I slept over his house, nothing special happened just did the usual.
I'm still going to try to keep my distance from him when school goes back. I don't know why, I just feel the need too.
That night while Justin was asleep I got a text message from Ryan
Ryan: I'll see you on Tuesday
Me:?
Ryan: we go to the same school dummy
Me: your the dummy
Ryan: see you then
Me: :)
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A/N thingy: Sorry it's really short, I didn't have much time to write this so it's really bad, if a chapter is longer like between 800-1000+
You know I had more time and I put more effort into it but I promise you it will get better and longer (that sounded wrong)
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