Autumn
2 months later
Justin's dad said he could quit school early, Raegan said he has already moved into a flat with a girl named 'Alice'. They are probably dating. But I never had a chance with him.
And of course Nadine and Abby don't stop, they smashed my phone and I had to get a new one, they broke countless necklaces and bracelets I wore so now I don't wear anything like that except for hair types and wristbands. Ryan and I have kind of drifted apart but I was fine.
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It's lunch time and since Nadine and Abby would usually find me, I have found a new spot to hide. Benches behind the p.e buildings. I saw people on the field play football and stuff and I just observed
I had a free period after lunch so I decided to leave, I drove to a place that has like a stream. I think it was an old fishing or camping spot
There is a little abandoned building that has a ladder so I usually climb at the top and take in the view
I took another bite of my sandwich, then put it down, it slipped and fell off the ledge, oh well. I don't need it anyways, I need to lose a few pounds anyway. I continue to dangle my legs while slightly head banging to my music playing through my ear phones
It turned to a sad twenty one pilot song 'goner'
This song is so good but it always makes me depressed
What am I doing here. Nadine is right, I dont belong here. Abby is also right, I should just die
What's this feeling I have in my chest. It feels like butterflies and pain all at once, but I kind of like it though
I shouldn't be here. Not just because this place is abandoned, I shouldn't be on this earth.
I don't like myself.
I stand up on the ledge, I swing my legs off the edge in a fun way. I slip and fall and hit my chin on the edge, I hung on the the ledge for my life, I keep hyperventilating, i look down. Even though that's the worst possible thing to do
I see a window ledge beside me, I prop my right leg on it and doing a little jump and being myself up, I'm safe. I'm okay. I lay down on the dirty concrete top.
Trying to take it all in. What the fuck just happened? I could have just died. I would be doing everyone a favour
I keep huffing and puffing, my can feel my chest caving it
I grab a hold of my phone and scroll through my contacts
Ryan-he would get mad that it happen
Lucy- she can't do anything about it, she is still back home
Raegan- he is in class
Of course I can't call my dad, then I just stare at the contact name 'justin'
He is pretty much the only person that could help me right now
I press call and wait for him to pick up
Justin
Alice and I are halfway through our lunch when the unmistakable sound of my phone cuts through our conversation. I look down at my pocket, I pull it out, my frown deepening when I see the strange number that I haven't seen before. I look up at Alice, she shrugs I answer and hold the phone up to my phone
"Hello?" I say, but my voice to cut off by a desperate, shaky voice
"J..Justin, is this Justin?" I raise my eyebrows, trying to put my finger on who the voice belong to
