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(Song of the chapter: Dynasty by MIIA)
It was now Wednesday and Jeff and I haven't spoke one word at all. We exchanged weird looks on the hall and he was blocking me out completely. I didn't want to live with this. I knew I should have opened up and let him in but I couldn't. I was afraid to get hurt and this was the reason. I was afraid to hurt him. Well, I got my wish. But, I was hurting in the process.
"Why? Why was I so stupid?" I asked clay looking at him with a sad look on my face. "You aren't stupid. I don't know why you pushed him away but I'm sure you have a good reason." Clay told me as he patted me on the back.
I looked over at Jeff's locker. "He misses you too ya know?" Clay said. I rolled my eyes. "Really?" I said. I watched him flirt with one of the cheerleaders and felt this pain in my body. I can't tell if the pain was in my heart or my stomach.
I will not let myself develop feelings for someone who left me. I didn't want him to leave me though. I just wanted someone to care for once. I know he cared but he doesn't anymore. I have to live with that.
"Maybe, I should just go home and skip school." I told Clay. "Don't fail school just because of some boy." He chuckled. "It's not just him." I spoke looking down. "My parents are getting divorced." I whispered not wanting other people to hear. I started to cry again. I cried every time someone just mentioned parents. When my parents were together they gave me hope that I would love someone as much as they loved each other.
But, I was probably lying to myself the whole time.
"Don't cry." Clay said pulling me into a hug. I cried and then looked over at Jeff who rolled his eyes l, slamming his locker, and walking off. I cried even more.
I just realized something major in that moment.
I had feelings for Jeff Atkins. Dangerous feelings.
