Keep Breathing

17

Every night for the past week and a half has been spent  virtually the same way. Each night was spent with Luna, making sure she was happy and it really was a blast. I spent every moment the boys and I weren't working planning or hanging out with Luna. And it was actually very fun. But I was worried about leaving in a few days and I had no idea how Luna would take being alone again.

"All along it was a fever

A cold sweat hot-headed believer

I threw my hands in the air, said, "Show me something,"

She said, "If you dare, come a little closer."

Round and around and around and around we go

Oh now, tell me now, tell me now, tell me now you know.

Not really sure how to feel about it.

Something in the way you move

Makes me feel like I can't live without you.

It takes me all the way.

I want you to stay

It's not much of a life you're living

It's not just something you take–it's given

Round and around and around and around we go

Oh now, tell me now, tell me now, tell me now you know.

Not really sure how to feel about it.

Something in the way you move

Makes me feel like I can't live without you.

It takes me all the way.

I want you to stay.

Ooh, ooh, ooh, the reason I hold on

Ooh, ooh, ooh, 'cause I need this hole gone

Funny you're the broken one but I'm the only one who needed saving

'Cause when you never see the light it's hard to know which one of us is caving."

"Harry, you've been singing that damn song all day" Louis moaned, he was sprawled out on the living room couch of our joint room pent house suite. A remote in one hand and his head in Eleanor's lap. 

I shrugged and continued the last verse silently, in my head before answering. "Well there's 6 other rooms to be in Lou, go find one where you can block out my singing." 

"it's not your singing Harry, it's the song. Jesus Christ how many times will you sing it?"he complained. "and why the same song?! There's literally a million others" 

I let my shoulders rise and drop again, continuing my ironing for today. To be quite honest I didn't know why that song was suddenly imprinted in my brain. Or why it was the JP Cooper version and not even the Rihanna one. 

"When I have a song stuck in my head it usually has to do with a specific memory or if I'm thinking about someone in particular" Eleanor commented. She was mindlessly watching Lou as her fingers slid back and forth through his hair. I rose an eyebrow at her addition to the conversation. "Are you thinking about anyone in particular or a memory maybe?" she offered, her eyes finally rising to watch me. 

Yes actually. 

"No, it was just on the radio earlier, probably got stuck in my head or something I guess." I mumbled, pulling my dress shirt from the ironing board and sliding my arms through the sleeves. I relished the warmth for a short moment before moving my fingers to the buttons. 

"Harry Styles you are a terrible liar" the voice was Louis now, making my eyes roll themselves at his words. 

"What makes you say that Lou" I sighed, a bit fed up with the conversation already. I knew where it was gong and I wasn't too happy about it. The topic has been brought up too many times already. 

"Because I know you. Now I'm not about to start some girly gossip shit-" he said, pushing himself off the couch and walking my way. Eleanor watched from where Lou had left her and laid her arms on the back of the sofa, her chin resting on them as if she was about to watch a good tv show. "-but I know you've been talking to that Luna girl. And I know for some reason you're completely infatuated with her." he paused. "why?" Louis seemed genuinely confused and I didn't blame him. We were originally planned to only stay in New York for a few days, I begged management to prolong the time we stayed because we didn't have time off after this so I could just stay on my own. We were headed place to place after these two weeks and a ton of promo during our stay now. All because I asked for extra time, but none of the boys knew why. I was always so open with them all, but now I felt like I barely ever spoke, because all I want to talk about is Luna.....and maybe I shouldn't be getting so invested but I can't help myself. I get invested with everything I do, it's who I am. I love, and I pray, and I fight for what I believe in...

"I'm not infatuated with her Lou, she's just a fan going through a tough time and I'm trying to support her is all"

"By disappearing every night? You realize your risking exposing the both of you to the public and I'm sure that won't help with her 'tough time'" Louis mimicked. I took a deep breathe a shook my head, Louis was one of my closest friends, but he wouldn't understand this unless I laid out every detail for him to see and judge, it was just who he was but I didn't have time for that, nor did I want to expose Luna's private life to someone she, well, didn't know. 

"Speaking of time" I muttered, my eyes ran over the clock on the wall "I'm late" Louis rolled his eyes, throwing his hands up in defeat as I passed him and shoved my feet into my boots. I knew he was trying to understand what I was doing and look out for me at the same time but he couldn't do that anymore, I may be the youngest but I'm not a baby. Louis knew well of how hard I've fallen in the past but it's just silly of him to think that's what was happening now. 

I yelled a goodbye before closing the door behind me, my coat was slung over my shoulder as I walked towards the elevator, rode it down, and then headed towards the car garage. The white car I used to pick Luna up in last week on our way to the 1920's dance club was parked directly in front and I was surprised to find not one bit of paparazzi in the car garage today. Maybe after security kicked them out yesterday they got that why weren't aloud to actually be here. 

New York had too much traffic for my liking. The ride to Luna's job was long and undesired and when I finally made it, the store had already been closed. I smashed  my lips together and drove to her building instead. Parking at an empty parking meter and dropping the coins in so I wouldn't be towed. I was happy with myself for taking a mental note of where Luna actually lived so I wasn't frantically searching the city for her since she never seemed to want to answer her cellphone.

I grabbed the backpack I had packed last night and stuffed into the back seat with me now. It was full of things I believed Luna would like after learning a bit more about her. I hadn't learned much really, just her favorite movies and food and trivial things like those, nothing that could help me possibly save her life and I was really running out of time. I hoped tonight would be the night I could pull out all the stops and make her feel loved again. 

A/N:double update holla