Keep Breathing

33

The feeling of the room seemed to change over time. The once unfamiliar and stale smell of the blankets had turned sweet and familiar, and it was much warmer than before. The sun was still bright against my eyelids so I knew I hadn't slept the day away. As much as I knew I should get up, this was so comfortable. I nuzzled my nose further into the warmth that barricaded me and let out a small sigh of relief. A deep chuckle startled my peace, a sweet voice immediately filling my ears afterwards. 

"your nose is a bit cold to be pushing it on my neck like that" he laughed. 

I took in the sight before me in shock, my body was pushed against Harry's side. His right arm behind his and his left somewhere behind my head. I had somehow pushed myself onto his chest and weaseled my way into the crook of his neck. I coughed, slightly embarrassed with myself as I pulled away with heating cheeks. 

"Oh sorry about that"

"Don't apologize" Harry grinned and opened his arms from his spot lying down on the blanket beside me "Now come here and give me a proper cuddle since your awake" I couldn't help but smile and fall back into his embrace, his long arms folding themselves around me easily as he rested his chin on top of my head. "It's good to see you again moon"

I pushed myself closer in response, I hadn't quite found myself comfortable with the name again yet. But Harry really seemed to like it so I dealt. I took note of the tv across from us that was on mute and frowned at it. "How long have you been here Harry?"

Harry pulled an arm back to check his watch and shrugged. "Two hours maybe"

"You could have woken me you know" I responded, shaking my head slightly as i pulled myself up right and began to tie my hair up in a bun. No doubt it was a mess by now. 

"you needed to sleep and I was perfectly okay with waiting" Harry smiled, folding his hands over his stomach. "but anyways are you ready?"

"For?"

"To go out silly"

"Out where?!"

"do I ever tell you these things"

"I honestly think you just make it up as you go along" I countered as I slipped off the rather tall bed and stretched. 

"sometimes" Harry winked. 

"are you sure we should be heading out with your fans all around? I mean I'd feel terrible. I am one of the after all, seeing you with another girl would kill them. And you know how quickly rumors about you spread"

"They'll have to know sometime Luna" Harry replied, swinging his feet off the side of the bed and resting his elbows on his knees as he watched me rummage through my suitcase to find a decent pair of jeans. 

"They'll have to know what?"

"That I'm seeing you" I felt myself crumble slightly on the inside, we hadn't discussed what we were yet, but I knew what Harry wanted us to be and what we should be. We had only kissed twice but I knew how important this would become soon. 

"Harry- you do know we are friends right?" 

Harry seemed slightly taken back by the question, his eyebrows furrowed and his green eyes darkened as they watched me. "Well- I mean yes"

I chewed my lip, feeling uncomfortable as I approached him and sat beside him on the too large bed. Harry turned to his side, folding one leg onto the bed as I did. My gaze dropped to my hands, trying desperately to avoid his eyes. His own hands came into view and covered mine, trying to comfort me. "Harry, we can't be anything more than that. I know I kissed you, and that was wrong of me. I lead you on when I let you kiss me again but as much as I want to be something with you... I'm not ready. I care about you greatly, more than you will ever understand but I can't put myself in the situation of loving someone again only to be ripped apart and... I think it'd be better for the fans too. I know how much you mean to all of them. I don't want to be the one between you and them either... I just-"