I want you.

My bothers grave.

  Love is so weird. It can be shown in so many different ways. People will do crazy and outrageous things for love. Sometimes you don't even realize that love is standing right in front of you. Sometimes you make yourself believe you love somebody because you don't want to hurt them. You go without that certain person for a long period of time and realize that person isn't ment for you. And that right there is Tom. I don't think this is right I think its wrong but I can't help how I feel. No one can. Feelings take over your body almost like a drug does.

  I wake up to someones laughter. My dads laughter and another laughter that seems familiar.

I get up and look out my window.

What I see surprises me. Its Robert and My Dad. Robert and My dad stand next to my dads 1970's corvet talking and laughing.

  I go to the bathroom. Brush my hair and wash my face. I try to make myself acceptable. I walk outside letting the door slam behind me. Robert and My dad both dart a look at me as I stand on the porch.

"There she is!" My dad says with overpowering excitement.

Robert smiles at me and I smile back. I walk over to them.

"Hey Rob what are you doing here?" I ask.

"Oh he came over from the beach. He said he had a car like this and then we started talking about cars. Then little did I know he was a friend of yours. He told me you guys met a month ago." My dad says. I give a glare to Robert who had a grin on his face. He knew he could get my dad to like him. And I knew my dad would like him.

"Oh so R-" My dad gets interrupted by my mom.

"Jerry, come inside and help me g-" My mom stops and squints her eyes looking at Robert.

"Whos the handsome gentlemen?" My mom asked nicely. My dad walks towards the front door.

"Its Alex's friend Robert. Just met him. Funny guy." My dad says as he opens the door.

"Bye Robert. See you around!" My dad says as he walk in the house.

Robert waves and smiles. My parents go in the house.

"So I see you and my Father are best pals now."

Robert chuckles.

"Alex I just met him."

"I know I was just kidding with you."

"So would you like to go get some breakfasts with me?" He asked.

I smile.

"Of course let me get ready."

I walk on the porch and turn back around.

"Stay right there." I say pointing at him.

He giggles.

"Where am I going to go?" He says giggling.

I laugh and go in the house and get ready. I rush outside and like he said he didn't go anywheres. He stayed right there waiting for me.

He held out his hand and took it. We walked down the side walk as he lead me to where ever we were going for breakfast. Holding his and as we laugh and talk and as we walk just felt right.

  He took me to a nice dinner. We ate and talked and then left. As we walk through the park holding hands he stopped walking and looked at me. "Could we go see your bother?" He asked.

The grave yard was a block away. So walking wasn't a problem. The problem was that I haven't been there since he was burried. Which was like 10 years ago.

"Eh, I don't know."

"Alright." He says with out disappointment.

We continue to start walking. Then I start to think. This isn't right or fair to my bother. I should visit him.

"You know what, Yeah lets go."

"Are you sure?" He says.

"Yeah."

He smiles and we start to walk to the graveyard.

As we enter the cemetery I am overwhelmed. I hope I can remember were his grave is. It takes me 10 minutes to find it and I eventually find it. Well I didn't find it Robert did.

"Its kinda sad that I can't find my own bothers grave." I say as I look at all graves that surround me.

"Which is sadder, that I can find it and you can't?" Robert says behind me.

"Huh?" I turn around and Robert is bent over looking at a grave. I bend Down as well and read the words that are printed on the grave.

"In loving memory of John Aron Peters." 

"Wow." I say.

Robert looks at me.

"What?"

"I haven't been here since he was burried."

It was quiet. But a good quiet. The silence was ment for my bother.

"Do you think your bother would have liked me?" Robert asked.

"Why do you have to make everything about you?" I say jokingly.

Robert laughs.

"Im sorry the narsasistic side of me was coming out."

I laugh.

"Yeah he would have loved you." I answer.

"Yeah well most or people do." He says.

He gives me a cute smirk and I punch him playfully on the shoulder.

"Shut up." I say laughing.

He laughs along with me.

Robert makes me do things that I would have never done before. Like swim and visit my bother. I was so nervous and uncomfortable.before but now I have courage. He gives me courage.