I want you.

Dinner with the parents.

   Tom gets in his car before going in reverse he rolls down his window.

"Listen. Im really sorry darling. I want to work this out." He says.

And of course me and my big heart gets in the way. I feel really bad for him. We both put each other through misery. I look back behind me and see Robert standing on my porch with my dad looking towards our way. The feeling strucks me and the thought come bursting in. Maybe I should be with Tom. Maybe I should stay with Robert. Me and Tom can work this out. But I love Robert more. No I love Tom more. I love them both. Should I stay or should I go with Tom?

My mind exploding with questions that I have to answer my self anmd decision I have to make.

"Tom we can talk about this when I come home."

"your coming home?" He says surprised.

"Well I have to go get my stuff. But I don't really know what im doing exactly. I don't if Im moving here or staying in New York."

"Okay well call me when you decide to come get your things." He says letting the window roll up.

He backs out and drives off. I go back to the porch where Robert and My dad stand.

"Is every thing alright?" My dad asked.

I clear my throat.

"Uh, yeah." I say.

Robert gives me a glare. A strange look.

"Okay well your mother has dinner ready so why don't we go inside and eat." My dad suggest.

"Fantastic idea!" Robert says.

My dad smiles and they walk inside holding a conversation.

"You know Tom is a great guy but Im liking you more." My dad says to Robert. I follow behind them as we walk to the dining table.

"Well most people are quite fond of me." Robert says being the self loving kind of guy he is.

My dad lets out a chuckle.

We sit around the table. My dad sits next to Robert and I sit across from Robert next to my mom. Robert was telling some big story about how his dad used to make underground movies. It was interesting story. Then my dad was pulling out some of his jokes. Me and my mom have heard them a 100 times so it was hard for us to laugh but we did any. Then when Robert started telling us Funny storys and his own jokes everybody was choking on there food laughing. Even though this moment with Robert and my family was great I was still rethinking about ever breaking up with Tom and Maybe going home and staying there.

One part of me is saying to stay here, Robert is the right one and the other part of me is saying Go home to Tom, he is the right one.

But I don't know what side of me is right.

When dinner was over Robert helped my mom and I bring all the dishes to the kitchen. Me and Robert both went to the guest room after that.

  We lay in bed. He his arms warped around me. I am snuggled and cuddled next to him. Its cold in the guest so to have him next to me warming me up is nice. Now this feels right and I could stay like this for ever. But that one part of me still nags me.

"Is everything alright?"

Robert asked whispering.

"Yeah everythings fine." I lie.

He looks at me. His eyes almost sparkle. His eyes are so beautiful. I could get lost in them.

"Are you sure your okay."

I hold his face embracing it. I kiss him softly running my fingers through his soft hair. Every time I kiss him sparks fly and it feels incredible. He slowly pulls away. I could feel his smile.

"Im fine." I lie again.

He smiles and I smile back. He gives me a peck on the lips and cuddleds back up with me. The thoughts still drift in my head. I have to make a choice tomorrow. And what ever I do someone is going to get hurt and it will be my fault. I close my eyes and fall asleep blocking the thoughts away.