I want you.

A talk with my mom.

  As the days go by my love for Tom Drains. We stopped calling each other. We only text and we don't even text that much anymore. Its late and I need some fresh air. I go outside and sit on my porch. The warm night air of Cali is soothing. The moon is shining and I have the urge to take a walk on the beach.

  As I walk along the beach. I feel someones presences behind me. And like I wish for it was Robert. "Hey!" he says.

"Robert do you live around here?"

I ask wondering why he is always on the beach.

"No, I live in the ocean with the rest of the fish." He says sarcasticly.

"Hahaha very funny, No seriously do you though?" I ask at again hoping to get a serious answer out of him.

He chuckles before answering.

"Yeah. I live up the street from here."

"Okay I thought you were always stalking me." I say with a smile.

"Only sometimes." He says back smiling.

Me and Robert walk on the beach holding hands. Talking. I force myself to imagine it is Tom. But I couldn't because I didn't want it to be Tom. I wanted it to be Robert and only Robert.

  I walked in the front door and was frighten by my mother. Who sits at the kitchen table alone. It seems she was waiting for me. It was late so it surprised me she was up.

"Alex?" Her voice creeps through the air.

I jump and let out a yelp.

"Oh god! You scared the crap out of me." I say catching my breath.

"Im sorry honey I didn't mean to."

She says sincerely.

"Its okay, what are you doing up so late?" I ask.

She pats down on the table gesturing that she wants me to sit with her at the table.

Something felt unsteady. I sat next to her at the table.

"Is there something I don't know?"

She asked investigating.

"Huh? What do you mean?"

"How are you and Tom?" She asked.

She searched my eyes. I didn't know what to say. I look away from here and the emotion over powers me.

"Well, I really don't know any more." I said making eye contact with her again.

"Does this Robert guy have anything to do with it?" She asked analyzing my face.

"Mom, he is jus-"

"Now don't tell me you guys are just friends. I have seen you around with him." She says cutting me off.

"What do you mean you have seen me around with him? Have you been spying on me!" I have a bit of annoyance in my voice.

"When you guys have your little late night meet ups at the beach me and your father have looked out the window just to check to see what you were doing. So yes. If you wanna put it that way we were spying." She says.

I look away irratiated.

"I see the way you look at him Alex. You never look at Tom that way. And the way he looks at you. Its, it's unreal."

I dart my head up at her. My eyes water.

"Mom."

"Yes honey."

I gulp.

"I think im inlove with Robert."

A tear comes traveling down my face. And I sniffel.

"Oh sweety why are you crying?" My mom says reaching over for a tissue. She hand me the tissues and cuffs my hand holding it tight.

"I just..I don't want hurt Tom and this being in love thing is so over wheleming. Mom I am serious when I say I have never been so inlove." I say letting out a few tears.

"Honey, in this situation I can't really help you because your 29 years old and you can make your own decisions but the best advice I can give to you is Follow your own heart. Following heart gets you far. Trust me."

I stood up and she stood up and we hugged.

"Thank you mom."

"Your Welcome honey. And just remember me and your father support you no matter what."

I accepted it right there and then.

I was head over heals inlove with Robert.