[revising] psycho | yoonmin → BOOK 1

二十四| 怪物 monster。

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PARK JIMIN

It hurt like hell, every breath stung his chest till he was gasping for much needed oxygen. His lungs burned with every struggled inhale and he found himself not having fun anymore.

The warmth of the sun never bothered him before, but on this one particular afternoon- his skin felt like it was on fire and the sweat that dripped off his forehead felt like it could just evaporate in seconds.

His senses were on high once again, the third time that month already. The sun's light blinding him, each and every sound of the boys shouts and laughter echoed in his ears way too loud. Even the sound of the basketball hitting the pavement made his head ring till he felt nauseous and dizzy.

It wasn't till the familiar mint haired boy appear did his pain go away, memories of their night under the stars pushed his suffering to the back of his mind. But not for long.

He could sense his eyes lingering on him, way longer then he ever has. For once he hated it, he hated those dark, mysterious eyes giving him full attention. For once he wanted to hide away, not feeling so brave and his ego disappeared.

And he did- he left the basketball court, eyes averted downwards as he brushed past Yoongi. His skin felt like a thousand needles, making Jimin suck in a quick breath to keep from groaning in pain.

He lowered himself to the bench only to look up and meet the boy once again, who had followed him. He sighed a little, knowing what Yoongi was about to say already.

Yoongi reached out to touch his forehead, catching him off guard as he stared up at him. He tried to hold himself steady but Yoongi's touch burned like freezing winter, the complete opposite of what he was feeling.

Moments passed by and still Yoongi's hand didn't move, no words spoken and Jimin knew that if he tried to speak now his voice would give out.

"Just as I thought." Yoongi finally said, his face turning stern.

Jimin furrowed his eyebrows, blinking twice at him in confusion. It was the best he could do without completely falling over from the pain of Yoongi's touch.

He had longed for his touch again, but not like this. Not in this state.

It had happened so quick then. Last thing he knew, Yoongi's touch left his forehead and was replaced onto his wrist and soon the aching cold returned.

Yoongi dragged him inside, all the way to his room till he slammed Jimin to the bedroom wall.

He couldn't help it anymore, he cried out feeling the pressure of the wall dig into the soft skin of his back. His eyes closed tightly and he clenched his teeth to keep from whimpering out again.

"Tell me damn it." Yoongi growled lowly in his ear,"Look at me and tell me."

Jimin shook his head, suddenly feeling completely dominated by the older. He didn't like that at all. He opened his eyes, glaring into Yoongi's before whispering back.

"You wouldn't believe me."

All this time, Jimin had kept his secret away from anything and everyone. He even made himself believe he was just a normal human being just like everyone else in the world. But he had to except the fact that he was different and would remain like that forever despite the countless diagnosis and medications.

"I want an answer." Yoongi demanded once again, slightly pushing into Jimin to get and push the answer he wanted out.

Jimin couldn't help his feeling of being trapped. He felt powerless even when his strength was on full high right now. He could hear each and every breath that left Yoongi's lips, loud and clear. He began to count each inhale and exhale, his mind and thoughts were still a juggled mess yet he tried to concentrate.

"I.. I just can't!" Jimin finally exploded. He pushed his arms foward, making contact with Yoongi's chest. He stumbled backwards and Jimin took that moment to escape his grip.

"You don't know anything about me!" Jimin slide his hands through his orange hair, pulling on the delicate strands in angry and frustration,"You don't know what I've been through!"

Jimin's voice got louder with each word, his movements becoming random as he paced the room,"You don't know what's it's like to be me!"

Yoongi watched with fear from his place on the floor where he fell. He had never seen Jimin angry before, never seen the level it could go to.

"J-Jimin, no I--" Yoongi had started but Jimin suddenly collapsed to the ground in a big heap. He curled up into a ball moving back and forth with his eyes closed tightly.

"Jimin!" Yoongi rushed over to him but he pushed him away again. His skin was even more hotter than before and sweat practically dripping off him.

"Stay.. away.." His voice was mumbled and deep,"I'm.. a monster."

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{a/n;} Hello my lovely readers :) yay a new update finally. I had changed this chapter so much tbh, I wasn't happy with it at first so I added quite a few things about Jimin. And speaking of Jimin, what do you think he is? :0