[revising] psycho | yoonmin → BOOK 1

三十三 | 杀手killer。

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JUNG HOSEOK

He was absolutely done with the cold. The darkness. The loneliness. That damn Jin had figured him out. He no longer was just Yoongi's secret. He had forgotten the real reason why he had gone to Yoongi, the real reason why he so badly wanted to become close to him. Now, in the pitch black darkness of what the Undead called "Chaos", Hoseok clenched his hands together in what seemed like never-ending misery. He couldn't feel anything no matter how much pressure he put into his fists. They were still freezing numb and his emotions were just as cold.

His emotions were never real to begin with. All the Undead can't feel anything but the pain that they last relived. Hoseok remembers watching the floating figures around him for the first time, groaning out their loved ones names, reaching out as if they could still touch them. Ghouls is what they were, their soul long gone, lost forever. Their pale pure white skin and their twisted like faces of sorrow were the only thing that separated their kind from the others. 

Hoseok had wondered what it would have been like to not be a Phantom. It was almost like torture for him. But even with his mixed emotions about it, he liked it. He, among the few Phantoms they're were, were the only ones who could travel between the dimensions the Dead and the Living. But how did one become a Phantom in the first place?

That was the only dark secret Hoseok still held onto. Did it still hurt him? Not really. His emotions were tattered into pieces ever since he first awoke in Chaos, but there were still bits that passed through him every once and awhile. The memories never left though, it was something he wished would just disappear just like everything else had. 

Somehow Yoongi understood him even without knowing his secret. It was the reason he went to him in the first place, to fix his mistakes but how was he supposed to tell him he's a murderer. Yoongi, so young at the time would have been scared, so terrified that his only chance of changing his past would be lost for god knows how long again. It's not everyday that a Necromancer just comes walking by. Especially one that doesn't even know he's a Necromancer.

Hoseok closed his eyes tightly, trying to block out the sudden thoughts that rushed to him. An emotion finally had washed over and this time he was angry. Angry at himself but more angry at a certain someone. Jin was becoming a problem. How was he supposed to see Yoongi if he's constantly attaching himself to Jin's side? Maybe it wasn't just anger, but jealousy. His relationship with Yoongi was genuine, and now, he was back to staring into the darkness of Chaos and watch as the Ghouls float around in endless space.

Hoseok's eyebrows furrowed deeper as he clenched his hands more. Who said the Undead couldn't kill? It's time to bend the rules a bit.

Hoseok left out a soft chuckle to himself, "Man oh man does it feel good to be a Phantom."

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{a/n}; mmmm, how bout that cliffhanger though lmao. Is Hoseok gonna kill Jin off?! HHHMmmmmm? More updates soon. Anyone else in band or color guard besides me? :0 This is my third year marching and I swear it doesn't get any easier. Anyway, college and band is why my updates are so late, sorry about that ^^'