#Flirtationship

chapter twelve : she left

It felt like my world has crumbled down to pieces when she did that. She has finally decided to let go when I wasn't yet ready. I didn't want us to end but we had to.

She wasn't my girlfriend. She was just my best friend, but over the years I've been with her, there wasn't a moment that I did not struggle to think of taking our friendship to another level.

However, fear kept me and held me back.

She was too precious to me. I didn't want to lose her either way. I thought I'll get insane if she leaves me. And she actually did.

I did everything to keep her by my side. I became her best friend, when I wanted more. But fear held me back. I was afraid that if I push the idea, I'll lose her the moment I hurt her, so I held back.

Yet she still left me.

Everyone was bickering at us to take our relationship to another level but we ignored them. None of us thought we'd come to such point, and none of us dared to make a move and ask for an upgrade. All I did was flirt and love her in secret.

I didn't want to lose her so I thought having Lucy  will keep her by my side. I was wrong. I just pushed her farther away from me.

Lucy did not like her no matter how many times I tell her who she is to me. She kept telling me I look at my best friend differently, and maybe, she was right.

No. She's actually right.

But I still stayed with Lucy as I watched my best friend getting cozy with Lance. There wasn't just one time that I restrained myself from hitting on that guy -- who's also a friend of mine -- for flirting with her.

But she was right. She can flirt with any guy without my permission because she was just my best friend.

I drew the line for her by telling I was going out with Lucy. It felt like I actually drew the death of me.

And now she has finally decided to let go. Regrets and mixed emotions flooded my mind. She's my everything. Now I've lost her. Now she's gone for real. Now she's really leaving to start a family with her baby and Lance.

My thoughts were interrupted by a knock on my door. When it opened, it showed my mom and her worried face.

"Are you sure you just want to stay here? Why don't you go out and spend your remaining days with your friends? What about Kaitlyn?" she asked.

"She's leaving, too, mom. She'll follow her dad to Barcelona."

"Then you should really hang out. You don't know when is the next time you'll meet again after you leave for college," she persuaded.

"I wish I could do that. But she's pregnant with Lance's baby, mom. I do not want to tire her," I sadly explained.

My mom's face turned from surprised to a sad one. He glanced above my head and looked back at me.

She knows. Everyone except for Kitty and I.

"Are you okay?" she asked, worried about obvious in her tone.

I smiled curtly and nodded.

She did not speak anymore. She gave me a pat on my shoulder before she left.

I glanced at to where she had peeked up. It was my graduation gift for Kitty, placed beside a picture of Kitty and I. I sighed. I hoped too much.

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In case you're wondering or confused with the story, the first few chapters (from chapter two until chapten eleven) were flashbacks told by Kitty.

This chapter is a continuation of the present time in chapter one : promenade farewell.

So what do you think is Ethan's graduation gift for Kitty?