Revenge Is Sweet (COMPLETE)

Chapter 26: Trust Issues

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Chapter 26: Trust Issues 

Nicole's POV

I watched him walked away, ni walang ginagawa para tigilin siya. I feel so ashamed and maybe a little bit of pain? Baka dahil naiinis ako sa sarili ko dahil hindi ko kinayang mag explain at habulin siya but the thing that I am annoyed the most is that I just realized that I was two-timing.. that I was in a relationship but loving someone else. Dahil ba ginawa ko lang siya pamalit sa lahat ng sakit na ginawa sakin ni Alex? 

Did I just use him as rebound? Did I even like him for a bit, or everything else was just fake or a delusion? But somehow I feel so much relieve and I'm so ashamed that I'm feeling that. After hurting him this is how I pay him? That I'm okay with him being gone? I don't want to lie, I am fine. I'm not hurt.

But I have to make a step, so I shove Alex's hand away.

 "Go away." ang sabi ko sa kanya. But he still held my hand and he was forcing himself to me. No no.. This is wrong. Everyone is watching us, and my guilt is blocking my mind. "Alex.."

"Hindi.. I will held unto you. Kakapit ako, hinding hindi na kita iiwan at pakakawalan. Not this time." I couldn't see his face because he was at the back pero ramdam ko na totoo ang nararamdaman niya at ang mga sinasabi niya sakin. But still.

"Alex I have to-"

"Please don't. Don't go back to him, hindi na kita pakakawalan. Kung totoong mahal ka niya hindi niya rin ikaw dapat pinakawalan, he should've held unto you. Hihintayin niya lang bang bumalik ka sa kanya wihout him even doing anything?! So don't go."

I turn around myself to face him. "Alex ano ba!" Ngunit nagulat na lamang akong nakikita ko siyang umiiyak. He's crying. The first time I saw his eyes crying and begging for me.

"Don't." sabi niya at yumuko. I can't, I can't control myself. Gusto ko siyang yakapin, gustong gusto siyang patawarin pero hindi pwede. I know, but I am still confuse. About my feelings and what am I supposed to do.

Umangat ang ulo niya and he met my eyes. "Maghihintay ako. Hihintayin kong bumalik ka sa'kin. Hihintayin kita hanggang sa ikaw mismo ang lumapit sa'kin. So please, don't go back to him."

He finally let go and left me. Two men leaving me behind because of my actions. What the hell am I doing. Why do I keep on hurting the people I care so much?! Ganun na ako kasama? Did I even changed for the better or-

"Did I just ruin more things?"

Ang sabi ko sa sarili ko. I knelt on the floor and cried.

...................

I woke up the next day without feeling anything. No pain, disappointments, hurt, guilt, in fact I am perfectly fine! It seems na yung break up walang epek ha! I even checked my face on the mirror and yes maganda pa rin what do you expect? This is just normal I swear, I've been through a lot of relationships and none had ever affected me emotionally.

Ah, sino yung umiiyak kahapon sa harap ng maraming tao?

Shut up konsensya. I opened my laptop while still sitting on my bed and checked out the hottest topics. Ooh and it seems kasali ako. Head line,

N turned down two guys? Ata go Girl!

"Ha, at napakabit namin ni Lord. Kakampe ko pa ang mga tao ngayon dahil sa ginawa ko." I laughed, feeling proud that I did that. But there was this article or maybe photo, I don't know, that shocked me.